can u not- Mattia Polibio

22

lowkey been in a sad mood lately and a lot of times i write out of thoughts so here it is :/

y/n pov:

a couple weeks later (in summer)

school ended like 2 weeks ago and i've really just been in bed for a while :/

i feel like i almost don't have a purpose and i'm rly missing school
i never thought i'd say that but school made me honestly happier

i woke up and groaned cause i wake up to another day like the rest, bed all day.

i went to brush my teeth but i didn't feel like eating so i just got back to bed

i heard the door open and close and someone talking to my mom
footsteps began walking up the stairs and my door opens

i look up to see mattia

"hi" i say in a really low sigh
he pouts at me and joins me under the covers

i smiled a little, wow haven't done that in a while

"what r u doing here"
"i missed u" he says sadly
"like a lot, u haven't asked to hang and jas told me ur the same to her"

we talked for a little bit about random stuff but i rly didn't feel like it

mattia stood up
"come on let's go do something!!" he says in a happy tone

"no"

"what happened to the old y/n! the happy, energetic, up for anything y/n?!"

that's when a tear slipped out of my eye
mattia ran over to me and picked me up so my legs wrapped around his torso and my head hung over his shoulder letting tears fall

"i'm sorry for saying that"
i nodded and put my face in the crook of his neck sad

"i just wanna lay in bed all day, with u" i said looking into his eyes looking like this emoji "🥺"

"ok let's do that!"

we watched movies, talked, laughed, made tiktoks, and walked down to the corner store for snacks
i had a really fun time!

it was now 8 pm and i rly dont want him to leave🥺

"girlll i gotta gooo"
he said in his funny girly voice

tears started to fall again and i looked like this 🥺 once againnn

he pulled me into another tight hug and i flipped us over and fell onto him purposely so i'd land on top on him in bed

he laughed and i kept him trapped there

we both fell asleep and he ended up staying the night

authors note:
if u cant tell i like this emoji 🥺 a lot
BUT IM NOT ONE OF THOSE GROSS GIRLS THAT SAY SOWWY AND SHIT LIKE DAT EW

i'd call myself a bruh girl that likes that emoji😌