can u not- Mattia Polibio

87 (anxiety)

(this was suggested, my sister has been diagnosed with severe anxiety since she was little so i'm basing this off her everyday experiences with anxiety, since i have a lot of people that read my stories so i feel i should spread awareness :) your never alone)

y/n pov:
skip to next week on monday

i walked into first period with kairi knowing i have to present my project and slideshow in front of the whole class
i'm not at all comfortable with this my heart is already racing and i feel nauseous
i sat next to kairi as my leg bounced up and down

teacher: ok who would like to start
no one raised their hand
teacher: if no one raises their hand i'll pick
she said grabbing her jar of popsicle stick

not this sticks
i thought to myself getting more anxious

teacher: ok, aiden. your up!
i let out the breath i was holding as i was relieved it wasn't me
aiden went and nailed the whole thing

mine isn't as good as his, mines horrible
i thought as aiden took his seat

i raised my hand
y/n: ms, may i please use the bathroom
i said stuttering
she let me go as i ran to the bathroom

i texted mattia instantly asking him to come to the bathroom

he walked in a couple minutes later seeing my face pale and a flustered look on my face
mattia: hey hey hey what's wrong!!
i explained the story and tears went down
mattia: shhh it's okay i'm here
he said running his fingers through my hair as i layed on him
knowing he was there and i was safe slowed my heart rate down a bit

y/n: i don't want to go back in there
i said shuddering at the thought
mattia: i have to get back to class though, i have a test
i nodded and got myself togetehr before heading back to class

teacher: oh y/n your back, would you like to go
i instantly panicked inside my brain
i felt that i was going to have panic attack
i walked to her desk whispering that i was uncomfortable to preform
teacher: oh come on you got this
she talked so loud the whole class could hear
she doesn't understand me at all, i wish she understood my severe public speaking anxiety

that was part one of anxiety here's the next :)

y/n pov:
pretend her mom is home for this bit

mom: y/n can you run to the store for me quickly
y/n: no thanks mom i'm not comfortable doing that alone, i get nervous talking to the cashier, creepy men, and people staring at me while shopping
mom: oh but it's a quick trip you'll be fine!!
y/n: please mom, no.
mom: ok fine, maybe next time
she said which made my heart rate go down and my breathing go to normal

i wish she'd understand me more.

author note:
i'm sorry if this isn't good, i don't have anxiety but my sister tells me about hers so here's what we got!!
enjoy my loves❤️