me and des grabbed snacks and watched movies in her basement we can't stay up all night like we normally would cause we got school tomorrow we already told the fans it's official and they're really supportive as always
i called katelyn telling her the news and as i expected she acted supportive but we all know she wanted mattia to herself cynthia was so happy and same with anyone else i told
maybe in the morning i'll call my parents and tell them but with time zones it's way to late to call them
we ended up falling asleep downstairs
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when i woke up i put this on cause i'm using des clothes i texted tia good morning cause i do that everyday
then des drove us to school and i let my mom know i'm safe and at school
mattia: hi he said as we walked into the school doors y/n: hi why the fuck is it so cold mattia: for real why are u dressed like it's summer here he said taking off his hoodie and handing it to me (he has a shirt underneath btw😭) y/n: thanks i said putting it on
i kissed him quickly before following kairi to math class we just fooled around the whole class
skip to lunch narrator pov:
y/n was just sitting on her phone since she forgot a lunch everyone was offering her something but she just said no thanks
after lunch y/n went to english with mattia and mattia ended up falling asleep
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y/n_spams: when he falls asleep and leaves me in english alone :( ~comments~ kairi: lil bitch des: i'm deaddd fan: such a cute sleeper omg fan: you win girl ——————————
y/n pov:
i was just lookin at how cute and peaceful he looked and how i won at life he slowly started to open his eyes and got embarrassed so he smiled and faced away
y/n: don't be embarrassed i said hugging him he's always so warm when he wakes up and i was so cold he laughed and i held on tighter we're in the back of the class and basically everyone was asleep so no one cared or noticed there was literally another couple making out in the corner ew
only two more blocks of school then i get to hangout at mattias!!!! wooo
this day is so long
skip to after school
finally after school i got into mattias car and we drove to get food then to his house mattia: so ur sleeping at kais tonight right? he said making a sharp turn y/n: yes dad i said sarcastically making him laugh mattia: what y'all finna do y/n: well ale is staying till like 9 then probably play video games and go to sleep, he wants to stream among us tonight so probably that
he nodded and went to the drive thru mattia: so your staying at my house thursday right y/n: that's the plan i said scrolling through tiktok y/n: then a big sleepover with everyone at probably my house mattia: ok, i need to stream tonight to so i'm joining y'all i nodded and grabbed the food from his hand
i ate a couple fries as we drove back to his house (if you don't eat the fries on the way home you ain't livin right js)
when we got to his house i collapsed onto the bed sighing loudly what a long day i sat on his lap eating my food while he played games on instagram live i was reading comments when i came across one that caught my eye
the comment: jenna is so much better than y/n ew wtf, at least jenna had an ass
🚨🚨possible TW: eating disorders!!!🚨🚨 skip till i tell you it's over if you will get triggered!! <3 <3 <3
normally hate doesn't get to me because over the years i've gained more self love from when my parents body shamed me everyday which caused me to get an ED i struggled everyday with this ED and i barley ever ate i got so skinny but it was never enough for me, after seeking help i got better and i'm more recovering everyday, i'm obviously still wicked skinny and i'm trying to maintain that weight i'm at but sometimes it gets hard because we all have those days :/ but comments like those sometimes get to me i got off mattias lap and went to lay on his bed because i didn't want to see anymore comments like that and get worse 🚨🚨🚨END OF ED TALK🚨🚨🚨
mattia: what's wrong why'd you leave y/n: nothing, just wanna lay down mattia: ok i'll come with you he said ending the live
i was holding back tears but i kept them in to act like i was fine
author note: the end of this is more of an awareness chapter for eating disorders, they are no joke and i've dealt with that stuff quite a bit if you guys ever need anything reach out to me, i promise i'm a good listener :))) ❤️❤️❤️❤️
