Sunsets and Heartbreak

Kabanata 39

Kabanata 39

"Can we talk?" I bravely said.

Seryoso siyang nakatingin sa akin ngunit pagkuwa'y tumalikod ito bigla sa akin. Akala ko ay aalis siya pero pagkaraan ng ilang segundo ay humarap ulit siya sa akin na seryoso pa rin. Hindi ako sigurado o baka nagdedelusiyon lang ako pero kitang kita ko ang guhit sa gilid ng kanyang labi.

"Yah... of course, we can. Ano ba iyon?" seryosong tanong niya na pabalik-balik ang tingin sa gilid sabay balik sa akin.

"Ahm, about the last time we talked. The chances you are asking..."

Surprised yet hope is evident on his eyes. Tila pinipigilan niya rin ang sarili niyang magsabi ng anumang salita na makakapagpabago ng sasabihin ko.

"I-it's fine... if you won't give me another chance. B-but I wanna say still that... I love you, Blayrie." He said while looking dearly into my eyes. I feel like he's looking in the depth of my soul. Like he wants to search for something that deeply rooted in my heart. And that is love.

Malalim na ang gabi. Walang mga bituin sa kalangitan maliban sa ilang bituin na pilit pinapakita ang ningning sa amin. Ang tanlaw ng buwan at ilaw sa mga establisyemento ang tanging liwanag namin sa madilim na lugar na ito.

"L-let's give ourselves a chance. I want to take a risk with you again. I want to feel our love again. I don't want to think the what ifs in our relationship anymore. I just want peace when I am with you in our little haven... Let's get back together. I love you, Greg."

A silence filled the rooftop. I thought he's not into it anymore. Because he's just there, staring at me, standing on his position. Unti-unti ring umuusbong ang takot sa dibdib ko. Iniisip na baka, wala na? May nahanap nang iba?

The tears are starting to form in my eyes but before they could even start falling into it, Greg suddenly hugged me. Tightly and warmly hugged me. Bumuhos nang tuluyan ang mga luha ko. Marahil ay hindi sa takot dahil sa sayang muli ay nasa yakap niya ako.

We are both silents. Walang nag-atubiling magsalita sa amin. We just feel it like this is all we both wanted. No words, just action. Pagpaparamdam lang ng pagmamahal sa bawat isa ang kailangan, hindi na iyong salitang naging minsan nang aming pinakinggan at nagpahiwalay sa amin ng tulayan.

"I can't believe it," he murmured as he kissed my head sweetly. I can feel how his heart beats for me as we continue to hug each other. And while I am still on his arms, I started panicking because of the sudden tears that I felt on my hand but then, he pressed me tightly against him.

"I'm sorry for everything. I know I am jerk but believe me, you are the only woman I love the most. I always wanted to do anything for you... even letting you go because of what I did. I was hopeless when you said I figured things first. I know, Blayrie, you're saying that, for me to stop reaching you. I didn't know what to do then until realization dawned on me when I saw my son. That I should stop pestering you and I should focus on my son. That you deserve someone without baggage. That you deserve someone who will not fool and deceive you. Because who am I? I'm stupid for fooling and deceiving you."

"Greg..."

"But thank you... I don't know what to feel because I still think that I don't deserve this. I still cannot believe that you are giving me another chance to love you. I feel like I am in a cloud nine. Like I am in heaven hearing your I love you a minute ago. Thank you, Blayrie, you make me a man again. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for understanding me. Thank you for everything. You don't know how much I love you. One million times I love yous are not enough to show the love I have for you. I'm going to prove it to you. If you want, I'll court you first. Because, Blayrie, you are worthy. You deserve everything, so I'll do my best to give all of it to you. I love you, Blayrie."