A Broken Tales

I LOST MY PEN THEN I FOUND MYSELF IN PAIN

✍: CANDRA🌙
FB Account: Candra Celina Adria

Solo writer, underrated, no one's friend and a lonely rpeir who lost in this world called RPW.

This is my second RP account, I abandoned my first RP acc because in there I lost my pen maybe because I got enjoyed talking to other rpiers and forgot about writing. In there I have a friend who's always chatting me and comforting me whenever I have problems, let's fast forward the story.

Those friends I have there leave me in rpw alone, then one reader of mine chatted me "HI MISS A! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU PO, NEVER HEARD AN UPDATE FROM YOU." I don't know what to say, I tried to write again but it's lame so I decided to delete the account.

Months after that, I tried to write again with a new rp acc I know in myself that still I lost my pen and I am eager to found it again.

But even if it's lame, I have one avid reader. He cheers me up, he makes me believe my self again and then he chatted me every day saying

"Good morning"

"Don't skip meals"

"Be hydrated"

"Take care"

For those simple words I FALL. Until such time he courted me and we became in a relationship, and with him I found an inspiration and I can say my works are going good and good.

I lost my pen and I found him.

But we all know happy ever after only exist in a story/fairytales. He left me, in a sudden he leave rpw without saying goodbyes.

I am heart broken knowing he is the only one making it whole again, but it's 3 years and I don't know if he'll come back.

I am in my normal days, staying at my room scrolling my news feed in facebook. I am a writer now become a reader. Then my messenger pop a message.

As I am looking at the senders picture my heart stops, the tense is here, the emotions were scrambled and my tears began to fall.

Me : hi, how are you? What happen to you, love?

I replied.

I am shock as I read his reply.

Him: SORRY IT'S NOT HIM ANYMORE. WE DON'T KNOW HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND I JUST KNOW IT NOW AS I READ OLD CONVOS, SORRY MISS MY KUYA DIED 3 YEARS AGO IN A CAR ACCIDENT, HE WAS ABOUT TO GET THE PUBLISH STORIES AND HE WAS SO HAPPY BY THAT TIME.AFTER YEARS WE DECIDED TO LOOK WHAT'S ON KUYA'S PHONE AND WE SAW A NOTE AND THOSE PUBLISHED STORIES THAT IS A BOOK ALREADY, THE COPY WILL BE GIVEN TO YOU, JUST WANNA KNOW YOUR ADDRESS SO I CAN SENT IT TO YOU. AGAIN, SORRY.

I was felt horrible, my boyfriend died 3years ago? Shit! I don't know how to stop my tears. I don't know what to do I only know the pain I felt right now. It hurts even it's been 3years! It hurts because I waited him to comeback but he can't!

Once again I lost my pen and I found myself covered with pain.