Writer: Ero Seruz
(Content Warning: This story contains foul words/strong language.)
SHE WAS 14, I WAS 18
I KILLED HER AT 16, SHE DIED AT 17
4 years ago, I met a girl at our school. That time, I was first year college. And she was a grade 9 student. Malapit lang yung building ng highschool students at college students, hindi rin ganoon kadami ang estudyante kasi nga private school
It was our breaktime and I was eating lunch with my friends. Nakaupo kami sa bench sa labas habang pinapanood sa field yung mga high school students na nag phy physical activities. Everything was going fine not untill nagsigawan sila at pumabilog sa gitna ng field. We know somethings happen out there kaya pinuntahan namin.
When we finally entered the circle, nakita ko doon ang walang malay na babae. Color blue ang necktie niya that's why I know na grade 9 student siya. Sobrang pale ng labi niya kaya palang tarantang tatanta si maam. Since medyo kataasan ang height ko, ako yung pinabuhat nila sa babae hanggang sa clinic.
The next day, palabas na ako ng gate ng may biglang sumulpot sa gilid ko. She was the girl I carried yesterday. She handled me a paper of bag and she was smiling. I still remember how beautiful she was.
"Para saan to?" I asked
"You're mr. Seruz right? sabi kasi sakin ng PE teacher namin na you're the one who helped me when my asthma suddenly attacks. That's for thankyou"
Hindi ko alam pero that time sobrang cute niya sa paningin ko.
" Paano mo alam nga ako nga yung nag tulong sayo?"
"Secret" she giggled. The most beautiful giggled I ever saw.
Since then, naging mag kaibigan kami. Madalas ay sabay na kaming umuuwi dahil magka harap lang yung village na tinirhan namin. Lagi ko rin siyang pinapanood sa field when it's their PE. My friends always teasing me na child abuse daw ako. Pero lang lagi sagot ko dahil kaibigan ko lang naman siya.
She's the girl na kahit 14 years old palang, mas matured na mag isip sakin. Lagi niya akong pinapagalitan kapag may naikwento ako sa kanyang kagaguhan ko. Patagal ng patagal, naging close kami, patagal din ng patagal, mas lumalalim pa yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya
It was her 15th birthday nung pina alam ko siya sa parents niya na sumama sa outing naming magkakaibigan. Yes, kaibigan niya na rin yung kaibigan ko dahil sobrang friendly niya sobra. It was an overnight beach outing. Everyone was having fun while we're two sitting at the sand, sa harap mismo ng dagat. She's counting stars, while I'm looking at her.
Nag lakas loob narin akong ilabas yung maliit na box and then I gave it to her.
"Happy Birthday!"
Ako mismo nagsuot sa kanya, And I can see, she was very happy. Ayoko na rin patagalin pa, sinabi ko na yung feelings ko sa kanya. I thought marereject niya ako, pero I can't explain how I was very happy when she finally said, we're mutual
Niligawan ko siya at alam yun pareho nung parents namin. When their JS prom came, tinulungan ako ng mga kaibigan ko na mag gate crash para lang maisayaw siya. It was the last dance, I was hugging her tight while we're swaying. The song 'heaven knows' was playing and we keep on swaying slowly. Feeling each other's heartbeat.
She said that night
"Ayoko na patagalin yung panliligaw mo, you know how much you mean to me so it's a yes" She finally said yes, sa sobrang tuwa ko, I kissed her. She was my first kiss. Nagulat nalang ako sa ginawa ko. But she kissed me back. That was the most memorable night in my entire life. I finally got her.
Naging okay yung relasyon namin, we always have a supportive friends and a cooperative parents. Hindi kami nag aaway dahil sa schedule, cause she know how to understand me very well. Ang alam ko lang, mahal na mahal namin yung isa't isa. Pero nagkaroon ng tampuhan when our anniversary finally came. Nagbakasyon yung parents ko at ako lang yung naiwan sa bahay, sobrang busy ko dahil sabay sabay talaga lahat ng requirements sa school. Akala niya, nakalimutan ko na kaya ang sabi ng ate niya, umiyak daw siya.
Little did she know, tinapos ko ng maaga lahat para i prepare yung surprise sa bahay. I told her to go at my house cause I'm sick. When it comes to that excuses, i know she can't resist me.
Pagkadating niya sa bahay, dim lahat ng lights at nandoon yung surprise ko sa kanya. Balloons everywhere and I gave her favorite food. She was very happy that time that's why she kissed me. But the kissed went slowly, patagal ng patagal. Hindi ko namalayan na I was on her top. That afternoon, may nangyari samin. And I don't have any protection na ginamit.
Nagsisi ako dahil hindi pa talaga dapat namin yun ginawa. She was too confused kaya madalas kami nag aaway. Dumating sa point na nagka sawaan na kami. Then I met Faith, new transferee. She was very pretty and we became friends. Sa kanya na lahat naituon ang atensyon ko. I found my self cheating on my girl. And then nag kaayos ulit kami pero hindi niya a yung about samin ni Faith.
Oo gago ako, niloko ko yung babae walang ginawa kundi mahalin ako. Naging cold ako sa kanya. Madalas niya rin kasi nahuhuli yung phone ko na nag popop up sa message ni faith. Nairita ako sa kanya that time kasi wala na siyang ginawa kundi ang umiyak.
After a month, nalaman niya yung about samin ni faith. Nakita pala kami ng kaibigan niya sa coffee shop na kaakbay ko si Faith that's why they took some photos and show it to her.
Lumuhod siya sa harapan ko and she was begging me to stay. She was crying hard. Pero putangina ko dahil sinabi ko sa kanya na ayoko na at mas mahal ko si Faith. She walked away crying. But before that, she kissed me first and hugged me tight.
"Di ko alam kung san ako nagkulang, binigay ko naman sayo lahat. But always remember that I always loved you. How much you mean to me. I know this will happen, but still thankyou for loving and taking care of me".
And then kumawala na siya sa yakap ko at lumakad palayo. I found my self, crying too. I finally lose my world
Months passed, nakipag hiwalay ako kay Faith. Ganun pala talaga pag sobrang mahal mo yung isang tao, kahit sinong makilala mo, sya pa rin yung hinahanap mo. I tried contacting her but her ate said nasa leyte na daw sila. Lumipat for some reason. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko dahil hindi pako pwede pumunta sakanya, kailangan ko pa tapusin yung isang sem
After 3 months, nagulat kami sa lagabog ng gate, someone was shouting and it was her dad. Nung lumabas ako, sapak agad ang inabot ko. Gusto pakong bugbugin ng papa nya pero pero inawat siya ni papa. He now cried in front of me.
"P*T*NG*NA MO LALAKI KA! Dahil sayo namatay yung anak ko hayop ka! Sinira mo yung buhay niya! pinagkatiwalaan pa kita pero p*t*ng*na mo!"
My world suddenly paused. I can't breath after hearing those words. Wala ako sa sarili. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Halo-halo yung sakit, galit ko sa sarili at pagsisisi. Nalaman ko na inatake siya ng sakit niya dahil sa hirap ng pagbubuntis niya. Yes! she was pregnant to our baby. Our supposed to be baby. Hindi niya nakaya dahil sa depression at hirap sa pagbubuntis that's why when her asthma attacks her again. She died. My world died because of me.
She's just 17 years old. I finally saw her again, wearing white dress. But not walking on the aisle. She's lying at the coffin. Resting peacefully. She looks like sleeping cause her beauty never fades. Sobrang sakit. Kulang pa yung sobrang nararamdaman ko. Nawalan ako ng mag ina sa kaputanginahan ko. We're supposed to be happy but now. But look, my world was now gone
"She's always on my mind. From the time I wake up, 'till I close my eyes. She's everywhere I go, she's all I know" I sang.
If I could turn back time, I would make everything right.
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