Insanity Descent

Hey Author, remember me?

So... I told my friend I'm ready to talk to him again and she's gonna set something up. I'm kinda nervous, though most of my fears are that either he won't wanna be my friend or I'll end up going psycho again. The first one is something I can't really control, but the second one she's made a little plan for.

If I go psycho again then he goes bye-bye and she gets full rights to yell at me. I've also given that right to a few other friends, since I figure there needs to be a few monitors around in case someone's offline and something happens.

I've spent my {almost} two months focusing on not only lessening the intensity of my obsession by instead focusing on House M.D. but also dealing with the obsession itself. In the past my only solutions to an obsession have been to run away and fall into something else, but I know in the future there may be situations where I can't run from an obsession so this will also serve as a learning experience while I can still run if something goes wrong. On the bright side, my obsession has been demoted to intense crush and is still working its way down the ranks.

My original idea was to talk to him after finishing House M.D. and I finished it a few days ago, and I've actually made a mile of progress so I figured why not? I've been using my stress coping techniques to deal with the anxiety the idea of talking to him again has brought me and it's worked pretty nicely. Since I'm known to be paranoid and panic too much, the fact I can deal with my anxiety is a good sign.

Welp... I guess I'll post an update when we actually end up talking.