you know what really sucks?
going into next year knowing i will have practically no one.
ill have three people that i know for sure will stick with me.
only two of them go to my school.
but one of my best friends is moving to Minnesota,
another is her boyfriend and i dont want to get accused of cheating,
another hasnt spoken to me and continues to ignore my texts,
another is one of those friends that loves me one day and hates me the next so i never know where she is at.
so im going into next year with only two friends that go to my school.
and to make matters worse, i no longer have you.
so when im having a breakdown in the bathroom on the first day back because the last time i walked in those doors you were holding my hand,
i will have nobody to text and tell them to meet me in the bathroom for a hug
i will have nobody to hold me
i will have nobody to tell me that everything is going to be okay
i will have nobody.
next year was supposed to be my year.
it was supposed to be the year it all goes right.
how could that happen
if im walking through the halls alone?
anxiety latches onto my chest and i should go get started on my schoolwork before i start to cry again.
it literally isnt even 9:00 am yet.
im gonna start walking my dog down to the bridge,
every day at 9:00.
that way if i wake up feeling like shit,
i have something to keep my mind off of it.
YOU ARE READING
idk if i can call this poetry
Poetrybook 2 this started out as just writing down my thoughts. poems, quotes and other random stuff. thats what this was supposed to be. instead, it had become a diary. a journal, almost. this is long lost lovers. this is heartbreak. this is one s...
