idk if i can call this poetry

6:57pm

i stare off, spacing out

when people ask me what im doing,

i want to say counting the seconds as they pass,

i want to say turning every memory of you over in my head,

i want to say not forgetting,

i want to say thinking to much,

i want to say waiting,

i want to say loving you,

i want to say your name until my throat bleeds

but instead,

i say i dont know

and go back to whatever it was i was doing

to pass the time.

10 months
26 days
4 hours
57 minutes
and 49 seconds

which is about 331 days