Growing Up

Right Hook--Left Hook

“Oh look its my favorite punching bag…haha this should be fun.” He smiled his slimiest smile, I hated this guy more than Cami, now that isn’t saying too much about the guy, but something about him made my skin crawl. He had used to bully Johnny in middle school. I knew deep in my heart that Johnny was holding everything back, trying not to lay one hand on this creep.

He walked up to me and danced his thick fingers around my face tracing the groves and dips; he saw my necklace and snatched it from my neck. My heart dropped, and at that very moment so did Fernando. I watched my necklace sail into the air and land into the neighboring grass.

Johnny had tackled Fernando to the ground and began to beat him. There was no holding back, he wanted to kill him, racing over I had to hold his arm back, “Johnny! Please stop its not that serious. He isn’t worth going to jail over, please stop.” My yelling became a whisper as his muscles loosened and he removed himself from Fernando. His fists were all bloody and there were scratches from hitting the cement.

He walked to the grass and grabbed my necklace and stuffed it into his pocket. I was kneeling over Fernando, who by that time was semi conscious. “Babe, do you think you can carry him to my house?” His face was tormented, more so at the fact that I had even considered letting him into my home. “Please, I at least want him somewhere safe while he is out, you owe him that.”

“Why would you even consider helping this creeper out? I mean have you ever seen how he looks at you, with those beady eyes. He is a total psychopath and you want to take care of him? Come on now, think about this, what if he tries to take advantage? What if?” He complained the whole way home with Fernando placed so roughly on his back. All they were was just a bunch of what if’s.

When we got back to my house, I had gotten some ice and stuff to clean Fernando up, while Johnny sat moping around the kitchen. “Seriously, are you going to mope the whole time, I swear you are acting like your five. Just until he wakes up and we can get him home.”

 Johnny stopped pouting and became silent. For a few minutes the whole house was in complete and total silence. He had a look of sheer passion, from out of no where he got down on one knee, “Milly I know we are young, you and you have your dreams and I have mine, but I suddenly realized something. When he touched your face; that proved you are truly my whole world and without you there is no point in going on in it. I know that sounds scary and creepy in so many ways but I am truly in love with you and I know I’m not perfect and I’ll mess up, but I’m trying to be the right guy for you. I want to be that guy in your fairy tale wedding, the one who gets to kiss those sweet pomegranate lips.” I had tears running down my face, he pulled me into his chest, petting my hair cooing me until I was calm again. There was no way I could be calm when he touched me, my heart got that feeling again, my body wept for his to be closer to mine.

I pushed him off of me, and walked to go fix Fernando up. He followed me like a little puppy and sat in the arm chair across the way. He just stared at the ground, his eyes deep in concentration. I found myself drawn in by those eyes, crawling till I met them. I wrapped my arms around his neck, another embrace of perfection. “Milly, you confuse me. I mean like one second you want to be in my arms and the next you push me away.” I pecked him again and walked back to Fernando.

‘I am complex, in love, wanting so much more from him. I want him and only him, to do any and everything to make him smile. When I get close my body burns and I feel there is no hope but to give into him.

“If you must know, it is hard for me to stay away from you. YOU probably have know idea of all the things that I would like to do to you. I walk away when I get that urge to just throw you on my bed and have my way. You are like a drug to me, one that I just can’t seem to put down.” His eyes brightened up, he smiled and walked towards me. My heart began to race; the only thing I could hear was the racing of my heart dadu-dadu dadu-dadu, faster and faster in my head. It was happening, that feeling I got when I wanted him so badly, it hurt this time, like I needed it or I’d die.