Her not so fortuitous Love

Chapter # 23

Jessica POV:-

We went back and ever since then Aiden is not talking to me. What wrong did I say? I just wanted some time, Father's word pushed me deeper into the abyss,  I just cannot think properly, my mind in a state of silent havoc,  a loud scream but I can't show it. I don't know what I should do.  Should I give the love I am running from a chance or should I liberate myself from it? My mind is clouded with unclear thoughts. My heart felt heavy and Aiden's devotion is making everything harder. In this path of thorns, I lost the track of myself,  I don't understand what I want,  what my heart seeks, it's like a loop of despair and my every thought came to one conclusion, 

'How can you love when you spend years forgetting him?'

I don't know what is right or wrong. What I should do and what shouldn't. I pulled my hairs in frustration and wanted to release that overflowing ocean of uncertainties in my heart. This uneasiness might not become fatal for us. I need someone's advice but then deep down a voice from inside me tells me that Father's advice was the best and I should comply with it but at the same time I was scared- petrified. 

These thoughts ate me up and I cannot even focus on anything on our honeymoon and moreover I angered Aiden. 

I sighed and it's late night and Aiden is not home yet. He is doing this,  he is actually not showing me his face. He left early, he came home late, didn't talk to me, heck, he didn't even spare a glance at me. 

It's midnight and finally Aiden entered our room. 

"Welcome home. You are late.. again." I greeted him, walking to him to take his office bag but he put it on the table. He just hummed and loosen his tie.

"You freshen up, I'll serve dinner." I said.

"I am not hungry." He said coldly and took off his coat and tie. He opened a few buttons of his shirt as I complained, "But Aiden.. You haven't eaten-" Before I could finish my sentence, he went to the bathroom and closed the door at my face. I nibbled on my bottom lip and turned my head away. I sat on the sofa and waited for him to come out. When he came out I walked to him. 

"Aiden."

"I am tired Jessica." He said and laid on his side and covered himself with the blanket. I looked at him and wanted to tell him that I haven't eaten anything because I wanted to have dinner together but it seems like he wants to give me the taste of my own medicine. I sighed and laid in my side as we both fell asleep with an empty stomach. 

The next day, I woke up and felt like starving, I freshened up and drank a glass of juice to ease my hunger and prepared breakfast then, I went to our room and saw Aiden getting ready, he even woke up early and unlike always, he woke up by himself instead of me waking him up. I walked to him and asked him softly, 

"Aiden… can you drop me at Katie's place?"

"No. I have work." He said setting his collar. I opened my mouth to say something but before I could say, he picked the coat place on the bed and walked out. I walked after him, he was about to leave without having g breakfast but I held his cuff and said innocently,

"Aiden.. At least have breakfast please..  You haven't eaten anything." He stopped and wore his coat and turned to me,  he didn't look at me and went to the dining hall. I forced a smile and greeted Uncle and Aunt so did Aiden. We sat down and began to have breakfast in silence.

It's my fault, I felt bad and guilty about it, I shouldn't have assumed things like that,  it must have hurt his feelings. I know Aiden much, he doesn't get infuriated on things easily unless they hurt him deeply and looks like I have hurt him. I should apologize to him. I shouldn't have talked to him like that.  I leaned to Aiden and whispered, "Aiden, look, I'm so-" He cut me off by standing up.