Embracing the Chaos (Eclipse Series #1)

Chapter 40

Mas binilisan ko ang lakad ko at hindi na lang muna ito pinansin until I finally reached our room. I went inside by swiping the key card the staff gave us, hindi naman ako nabasa pero pakiramdam ko parang nilalamig ako.

"We need to stay here until the rain stop."

I nodded while refusing to look at him. Right? After tonight we will go back on acting like nothing happen between us. Na parang hindi kami magkakilala, I guess it's way better.

I started to dry myself. I can't take a shower, wala kaming dala na kahit na anong damit at gamit dito dahil sa sobrang lakas ng ulan. I'm glad na kahit papaano ay may makapal na kumot, malawak at malambot na kama.

Lumabas si Axel, I don't know what he's going to do outside at this hour and I didn't bother to ask him. Baka pala im-meet niya 'yong pacute na staff sa labas kanina, pacute? baka pakyu.

Nag-init bigla ang ulo sa mga thoughts ko. It's unhealthy to think of him this way, pero masisi niyo ba ako? Feelings change so as people.

Do his feelings change as he did? Ewan.

Sumilip ako sa balcony nang medyo tumila na ang ulan, there's still a droplet falling from the sky but it doesn't hinder my sight on how beautiful the scenery around this building.

My lips parted in awe when I saw how pretty the city lights were from where I am. It feels so great and somehow, it gives me the feeling of apricity.

Hindi ko napigilan pa ang sarili ko kundi ang lumabas upang tignan ito ng mas malapitan. Tumingin ako sa relo ko, napangiti ako nang makita na isa't kalahating oras na lang at pasko na.

Nage-enjoy kaya si Wyn ngayon? How about Xavier with his family? Finally, he decided to meet them again after a decade of being apart. How about Nevi and Heather in Paris? Are they going to spend their time on Christmas eve together? I feel bad thinking I wasn't there.

This is the first Christmas I wasn't with her.

Is Mom doing well? How about Dad with Cael? I wish they're having a good time and spending Christmas eve very well. Niyakap ko ang sarili habang nakatingin sa madilim at maulan na langit. I haven't been in contact with Mom and Dad.

Sabagay, Jeena was there for Mom, I guess she's doing just fine. We used to be like this before, no greetings on special holidays, we only talk when it comes to business matters and designs.

Unlike Jeena, hindi niya iniiwan ang side ni Mommy mula pa naman noon. She's always been there, obeying and staying with her until she can. I wish I can do that, too.

Dad was with Cael. That's enough.

Umihip ang malamig na hangin kasabay ng kung anong kirot sa dibdib ko. This wasn't the Christmas eve I was looking forward to. Hindi ganito ka-komplikado ang inaasahan ko, yet here I am stucked with Axel until the sun rises.

"It's cold," I whispered.

It was meant to be heard for myself. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko habang nanatiling nakatingin sa harapan, wandering my eyes at beauty of the night. I still can't believe that I'll be stuck here for tonight with this guy, with my ex.

Lagot sa akin si Pre at Liz kapag nagkita kami! They should just told me they couldn't pick me up or if nakaalis na sila! Hindi na lang sana ako sumama pa rito. I heaved a sigh as the cold breeze blew away again, it sends chills.

Ramdam kong may bumalot sa akin ng isang makapal na blanket. Nang lingunin ko kung sino ang gumawa n'on, it's Axel who's looking at the front like me. His eyes are glowing with a small smile on his lips. I looked away when I felt my heart started reacting differently.