Embracing the Chaos (Eclipse Series #1)

Chapter 42

We entered LFU Hospital.

Parang huminto ang paghinga ko habang nangingilid ang luha sa gilid ng mata ko. My Mom never been got sick or what 'cause she maintain herself healthy. She took a pretty care on her health more than anyone!

Nagmamadaling tumungo ako sa Nurse Station ng LFU Hospital upang magtanong tungkol sa whereabouts at sa room ni Mommy. I can't think straight as fear started to grow inside me.

"Is there a patient who named Treenity Seraphine Alcureza rushed here?" Tanong ko.

The nurse checked it. Hindi ako mapakali at pabalik balik ang lakad ko. It took for a while, bumaling ito, bago marahan na tumango.

"Yes po, sinugod po kani-kanina lang. It's in room 2094, 4th floor po. It's Mrs. Seraphine Treenity Alcureza." Saad niya kaya mabilis akong tumango.

I thanked her as I entered the elevator.

I'm panicking, I don't know what to do. I fidgeted my finger while trying to be calm as possible while running through the quiet and empty hospital hallway. The fact that my heart is started to beats faster didn't help it.

I didn't know what happened and Mom ended up to be in hospital. I just rushed down here while dragging Axel and asked him to drive me.

"Calm down," Axel suddenly spoke up when I almost trip while walking carelessly. "Or At least walk properly." Malumanay niya pang dugtong bago ako inalalayan na maglakad.

I didn't push him away, I have no time to do that. I'm trembling in fear while silently asking God to keep my Mom safe. I haven't seen her after our last talk when I'm still in Paris.

When did she come without me knowing? Alam ko hindi natuloy ang gathering this year. So why did she bother to go here? Wala naman na siyang business pa na aasikasuhin dito.

Halo halo na ang thoughts ko pati narin ang nararamdaman ko. I can't calm even I tried to looking at the bright side. There are what ifs and thoughts I'm afraid about swirling nonstop inside of my head. It's driving me crazy!

I admit I hated my Mom for abandoning me back then but I also hate how she ended up being here. She distanced herself from me but that doesn't mean I will be glad she's suffering.

I'm afraid to the point I don't know what to do.

"How the fuck?" Tanong ko, ramdam ko ang pamumuo ng luha sa gilid ng mata ko habang nakatingin dito. "She won't be hospitalized if it wasn't serious, Axel!" I shivered.

Horror was visible in my voice, I gasped for air while composing myself. My Mom was strong that I dislike seeing her being weak while lying in a hospital bed, barely breathing. Kasi tuwing nakikita ko na mahina siya, nasasaktan ako.

"She will get better." Axel tried to console me, he stared at me, as if saying everything will be alright. "You need to calm down and pray, that's all we can do for now." He added.

Pumikit ako kasabay ng paglalaglagan ng mga luha ko at mahina kong hikbi. Hindi dapat ganito. Hindi siya dapat napunta rito! I can't bear regretting I didn't treated her right when I have a time. It will kill the hell out of me.

Hindi pa man kami nagkaka-ayos. Hindi ko pa nasasabi na napatawad ko na siya matagal na. Na hindi ako nagalit sa kan'ya kailanman.

I may be hurt, pero hindi galit kundi sakit ang dahilan kung bakit ako lumalayo rito. And now I started to regret it. If bad things happened on her, I will blame myself for not treating her better.

For not spending the days I had with her. For not understanding her and for choosing myself.

I wiped my tears away as I pushed the negative thoughts I had in my head, trying to get a grip on myself. Axel is right. Nothing will happen even if I shed a blood of tears here. If will just worsen the situation, it will bring no good.