( cause this bitch is finally on her period!!...sorry for the language)
B E T T Y
Growing up I had and still have very bad anxiety disorder, I over think a lot and have many panic attack and over all just a very "complicated" person to be around as I've been told, every one I've ever met or have been friends with left..it's just me..and my mom i guess she's never really around. Till this day I still don't understand and know how to calm myself down I mainly just let it be until it decides to leave which is like 4 days max.
We sat in class listening to the teacher explaining the project, "I will pick your partners for you and this assignment will be due next week" the teacher said, my breathing began to quicken afraid my partner will hate that they are stuck with me.
"And last but not least betty you are with the new kid Jughead Jones" he said as a tall dark vibe boy stood up with his jet black curly hair covering his forehead and over his eyes a little and the rest hidden under a beanie. He sits down next to me and smiles "Jughead Jones" his voice deep and mysterious but his smile sweet and kind I smile back.. "b-betty Cooper.." I stuttered.. my hands began to shake making me drop my pencils out of my hand, we both reach down to pick it up. His hand on top of mine, we both raised our heads and looked at each other..I began to calm down..from his touch..
J U G H E A D
I looked into her eyes as she looked into mine.
I pull my hands away and looked away "sorry" I simply say and sit back up in my chair as she sat up in her chair too. "We can work at my house?" I asked her, I noticed that she began pintching her skin and her breathing quickened.
(I wrote that in because that's what I do)
"Hey it's okay we can work at your house too if it makes you more comfortable" I told her as she let out a breath and smiled "yea I'd like that" she said, her voice so innocent.. her lips pink and plump and her cheeks.. were covered with a little pink to it.. god..she's perfect.
I knocked at her house, a women in her mid 40s opened the door "oh hi?" She said "uh hi, I'm here to see Betty Cooper we have a project to work on" I said as her mom smiled "oh yes I was awarded of that! Come on in" she said moving to the side so I could walk in, I looked around. Man even her living room is perfect. "I haven't seen you before" her mother said as I turn back to her direction "oh uh yea I just moved here" I said as she smiled "oh from where?" She asked me "Greenland" I said as she smiled "well I'm off to work, she's upstairs in her room just down the hall at your right" she said as I smiled "thank you, have a great day at work mrs.cooper" I said as she touched her heart in awe "I will, you two have fun" she said as I smiled.
I walked up the stairs and walked down the hall and saw a door that said "Betty" so I figured it was her room. I knocked on the door, she opened it and smiled "hey" I said "hi" she said tucking her curly hair behind her ear, her ponytail was down, her beautiful blonde curls fall perfectly over her shoulders.
We were sitting down looking up things for the project. she let out a huff, I looked over her way and saw her running her hand through her hair..she's stressed. I let it slide but it was still on my mind, I continued to look back over to her, I noticed she was chewing down in her bottom lip.. her hands shaking and her chest moving up and down rapidly fast, she drops the pencil and began to pinch her arm.
I drop everything that I was doing and reached over to her "hey.. we can take a break if this is stressing you out" I said as she looked over at me.. tears filling her eyes as her breath quicken, "hey look at me" I said, she looks away, I sit in front of her and cupped her face to make her look at me, "look at me" I said as she shut her eyes and looked back at me, I let go if her face "follow my breathing" I said as she began to follow my breathing..it wasn't working so I did the next thing I new would work.
B E T T Y
I tried to follow his breathing but it wasn't working which made me panic even more. Out of no where he scoot me over and sat me on his lap, holding me like a new born baby, "listen to my heart beat" he said and grabbed my arms and began drawing waves on my arm, I look at him..he's so concentrated. I rest my head on his and listen to his heart beat. I began to calm down.
I lift my head up and looked at him, he looked back at me worriedly. I smiled "are you okay?" He asked his face expression worried and concerned "Im okay now" I said as he let out a breath of relief.
I was now sitting in front of him, "h-how did you know how to do that?" I asked him as he looked down "I did it to my little sister a lot.. she had very bad anxiety and she over thinks and had daily panic attacks, she died in a car crash.. a few years back.. but it was my way of calming her down it always works" He said as I looked down and frowned and chewed down on my bottom lip "I'm sorry for your loss" I said to him as he grabbed my hand "it's okay" he said looking into my eyes to assure me, "how did you even know I was have an anxiety/panic attack?" I asked him "you and my sister have the same signs.. she pinches her skin just like you or bites her bottom lip.." he said with a smile as I smiled.. "you know..you don't have to let yourself suffer..you need human touch, if you let me in.. I will help you.. as a friend if it helps you.." he said as I smiled.. "and maybe..more than a friend if you like..but I won't rush you into anything" he said with a kind smile. "I won't treat you like glass.." he said as I smiled widely at that comment..
God he's the sweetest person ever..
Next thing I knew.. I had smashed my lips into his.. he was shocked at first but soon realized what was going on.. he rest his hands at my upper waist and pulled me deeper into the kiss..
it feels great..to have someone who understands you..
