Hey so it's suicide prevention
Week!
And so I've realized that since my body image one I've inspired many of you and I helped many of you see your body in a positive way and it really makes me happy so I figured it's time to talk about my story and experiences with mental health and everything.
2 years ago, I became to hate myself (my body)
I felt like everyone around me was judging me and hated me. I felt unwanted and like I didn't have a purpose left like I didn't have anything to fight for.
⚠️SELF HARM⚠️
And that was the first time I began to do Self Harm,
I would sit on my bathroom floor and sob and cut my wrist. I never cut deep because I was afraid that it would leave scars and if they left scars my parents would see and I wouldn't know how to explain because In the end they'll say to me that it was for attention or I'd be all stupid at least that's what I thought.
there would be scars but it wasn't noticeable unless you payed attention.
And ever since then I've been self harming since, pitching my skin when I couldn't cut, bitting the inside of my cheeks so hard that my last dentist appointment my dental doctor told me to not bite the Inside of my cheeks because they are leaving scars. Self harm is not something I'm proud of doing.
It's been a month since I lasted did self harm.
The only people in my family that knows that I cut is my oldest sister, I cried for help and she helped. She reminded me that I was worth it they way she cried when I showed her my cuts the way her voice broke made me realize that I had a reason to carry on.
My reason was to fight for the life that was mine to begin with.
Most babies were born to live only a few hours. Waitlist we were born and given this life time full of opportunities, So why throw it all away?
We have a purpose to carry on to live another day
This is your life and your fight.
and I can't promise what comes next if you chose to fight because I don't know what comes next because I'm still recovering from self harm and suicidal thoughts myself.
And that's okay if you don't know what comes next, that's why it's called living. Your purpose of life is to live long enough to find out what comes next. Your life isn't a game, when you end it you end it there is no responding or coming back to life. When it's done it's done.
But hey, your not in this battle alone, you have me and millions of others going through the same things, we are all in this together. Never feel ashamed to ask for help when you need it. It's never too late to ask for help.
I'm here if you need someone to talk to just contact me on ig @_juggiesgoals_ and talk to me I'm here for you
Your friends and family are here for you survivors who beat depression etc. are here for you.
Never be afraid to ask for help!❤️
You've got this, we've got this so let's fight this together <3
If you are looking for help: 800-273-8255
It's never to late to talk to someone luv❤️
