Love Finds a Way

chapter three: for the better

Hayley's pov

My heart began to race so fast I didn't believe it didn't jump out of my body

Break up.

The words kept flashing in my mind over and over and over again. What did I do? Was I not good enough? Did he fall out of love with me? Did he find someone better? I knew it would happen there's always someone better than me. I bet she's prettier and smarter and he loves her more.

Hayley stop don't do this to yourself. You know for damn sure he can't get better girls than you.

I kept making excuses for myself to not cry.

I won't stop until he answers me. I pressed the call button again.

*sorry this person is not available right now please try again later*

Hayley: why wont you pick up?? Is this a joke? Because it's not funny

I couldn't hold my self back so i let my brain do all the typing. Which made me seem desperate. Who am I kidding. I was desperate for answers.

Hayley: Whats wrong?? Dont u love me anymore? Last night u kept my hopes up by saying you loved me and that you couldn't wait to see me Friday for our 4 year anniversary but i guess your not excited anymore. I guess you found someone better

Adam: i just
I just feel confused about us

Hayley: what do you mean? I thought you loved me
Please pick up

Adam: no stop calling or I'll block you and delete you from everywhere

Hayley:fine im sorry for not being good enough and don't bother to come and pick up ur clothes u left the other night its in the trash where it belongs

Adam:thanks i wouldnt have been able to find them anyway
Look im sorry its just not gonna work
I still like you but im just not sure about my feelings about my feelings for you or our relationship so please just don't ask anything regarding it and dont bug me about it.

Hayley: i wasnt going to anyway since you always bitch about things when ur not in the mood

Adam: umm excuse me? Says the one who doesnt stop jumping up and down when she watches her stupid youtubers

And with that I deleted him off of everything I could

But not from one place my mind

what do I do now? Well the bright side is that now I dont have to waste anymore money on stupid anniversary presents. And now I dont have to worry about telling him about me moving to the UK. As soon as I realized that I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.

But now the weight was somewhere else my heart

I felt as if my heart had been pulled out and crushed right in front of me. My heart rate sped up my hands got sweaty my knees felt weak. I felt sick and my head was spinning out of control.

I sobbed into my pillow letting go of everything I had been feeling for the past few days then I suddenly remembered where I was supposed to be at.

"Shit!" I say as I dial my dad's number "Hey dad I'm really sorry I don't think I can make it something came up that has to do with my traveling to the UK" I say as I hold back my tears,"I promise I'll try to make it up to you!" I say as a tear slid down my cheek.

"Thats okay kiddo! I understand that you might be nervous since you're moving to another country tomorrow and its alright we can always talk through skype or as soon as I figure out how to use it!" I laugh and suddenly feel a bit better.

"Well dad happy birthday and hope you have a great day I love you and say hi to Betty for me!!" I say trying to not get a voice crack from the knot in my throat.

"I will do honey, I love you more and have fun in another continent but not too much." He says in a serious tone.

"Oww I was just planning on partying every night and not studying!" I say sarcastically still feeling as though my voice would crack any second now.

"That's not nearly as much fun as I thought you would have! Well catch you later!!"and with that I was left with nothing but a void in my heart.

*a few hours later*

"Alright I got my blue suitcase green the two black ones and the red one, I think I might be missing one! Oh shit not now!!" I said frantically looking through my room again.

Mom comes running into my room "What's wrong?! Are you looking for your suitcase? I saw Jessica playing with it in the living with her ponies...again."

"Thank you!! Jessica!!? What are you doing I told you I need it I almost went crazy because I thought I lost it!" I say to Jessica who looks at me then runs away laughing. Who can blame her shes only 4. I chuckled as I head to my room.

Dinner was delicious and it was a good family meal. They all kept talking about how excited they were for me with the ocassional

"You have to come and visit whenever you can!"added with a stern look. I promised I would. And had a surprise for Jessica and Bailey.  But they would have to wait for a month until I sent it to them.

What if you meet Dan Hayley?? You would go nuts! Try insane. 1 in a million chances Hayley. Don't go to crazy.

And with that I went to sleep. Or at least I tried to sleep. I kept tossing and turning and kept waking up every hour. I'm used to not sleeping. Stupid nerves.

Try counting sheep. And I did until I fell asleep.

* 3:30 am *

With my aladm blaring I wake up and being the control freak I am I check and recount all of my suitcases and then get myself ready to head to the UK.

Gathering everything and making sure my phone was charged I felt my phone vibrate but just let the thought of who it might be slide to the back of my mind. Adam kept trying to text me last night but I didn't do anything. That fûck doesn't deserve anything from me.

After an hour of being ready and bugging Jackie (who slept over but was dead asleep early) to take me to the airport I stopped poking her and told her I would wait outside and take my suitcases and fit them in the car.

I daydreamed about Dan and his gorgeous eyes and how amazing it would be to meet up, but before i daydream anymore I bump into someone's chest. It must be the neighbors son who's always out partying.

"I'm really sorry I didnt see where I was going I'm kind of a clutz considering I didnt sleep much last night and well I have to many suitcases." I realized I was rambling and stopped myself from talking anymore.

I didn't sleep at ALL last night as much as I wanted to I couldn't stop thinking about Adam. But as soon as Adam was out of my mind for a while, Dan occupied it for a few hours,but I ended up sleeping 1 hour which isn't great but I'll catch up on sleep on the plane.

Before I can apologize again I catch a glimpse of the person I bumped into, the last person I wanted to see Adam.

Fųcks sake I sigh as he tries to explains.

"It's okay I should be the one apologizing. About yesterday... and bumping into you."

Wait why is Adam here at 4 am? Maybe he regrets what he did and he couldnt sleep. But I don't regret anything. (#noragrets)

His apology took me off guard and I said nothing to him I simply bumped him roughly out of my way as I tried to make my way to the car, but I was stopped by Adam who took a hold of my wrist and calmly asked with tears in his eyes.

"What's with all the suitcases?"