2020 has been one of the most important and toughest years. I have learned how to be more patient with others when God knows they don't deserve it. But who am I to judge. My kids have been stuck at home learning online when they wish they could be out having fun.
We might lose another family member this year and to be honest, I don't feel any emotions at all. I was there to help her with medical care but I stopped caring a long time ago. I just wish her peace and serenity when that time comes. Her whole family wants to open their arms to me as if nothing has ever happened and how they didn't hurt me for so many years. But I wish them the best and brightest moments come to them, in this time of darkness. It's not the same anymore, because when I needed them to be there for me all I got was judgment and cruelty. But I won't do that to them because I have moved on I'm a better person now and I see everything clearly. My choice of songs today has woken me up and made it more clear in my eyes and soul.
Love you all and wish nothing but the best. Please stay healthy.
