Always and Forever

Kabanata Dalawampu't-Tatlo

You will never understand the world's call until you realized that everything in this world that will happen in our life is just a phase.

Finally!  i murmured to myself while swiping my card on the screen to open my door. Meeting Jared gives me a horrifying thought that i can't even recognize. 

I sat and rest the back of my head on the couch as i close my eyes peacefully. 

Baby , i don't wanna lose you.  Please come back to me! I watched him shed his tears in agony. I love you so much.  Please. He reach my hand and when we're about to close the distance everything went blurred.

Napabalikwas ako ng maramdaman kong basa na ng luha ang aking mga pisngi.  Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako sa couch na kinauupuan ko.

I let a heavy breath while wiping my tears that i shed when i was sleeping.  I look into my wristwatch and saw that it's already 10pm in the evening. I set aside all of my thoughts in my head and went to my room to change my clothes into a satin lingerie.

Nakahiga nako sa aking kama ng biglang magring ang aking cellphone.  I look at the caller and saw Alex name on it.  I frowned for a moment before answering her call. 

Hello,  i asked in my small voice.

'Hey,  are you still up? ' Alex said to me.

Ah,  Yes.  What happened?  I ask her while sitting on my bed.

'Can you do me a favor?  She ask me loudly amidst of the noise in her background.

Yeah,  sure.  Ano yon?  Are you in a bar? 

'Yes, Im here at Bri's Bar. Pwede mo ba kaming puntahan?  Im sorry to call you this late at night , i know dapat nagpapahinga kana pero naistorbo pa kita nahihiya nyang sambit sa kanyang cellphone. 

Nah. It's okay i'll be there in a minute alright?  I said while looking for my clothes. 

Yeah,  alright i'll wait for you,  nanghihina nyang sambit bago pinutol ang tawag.

Iginala ko ang aking paningin kahit na nakakahilo ang mga nagsasayawang iba't-ibang kulay na ilaw kasabay ang isang malikot na tugtugin na pumapaere.  I scan the crowd and i saw Alex in a couch.  I went to her and saw Jared's beside him . 'Hey i said to her and smile a little bit.  She look at me with her tired eyes and smile at me too. 

Im sorry kung pinapunta pa kita dito ha?  Hindi kona kase alam kung ano gagawin ko sakanya malungkot nyang sambit habang nakatingin kay Jared.

Nah, it's okay , malapit lang naman to sa condo kaya no worries. She only nod at me and smile painfully.

Ikaw kase tinatawag nya kanina pa her voice shattered and i saw her eyes gleam for an incoming tears. 

Napatitig ako sakanya habang nakatitig sya sa lalaking nakasandig sa upuan habang nakapikit ang mga mata nito.  I saw the pain cross in her eyes while she's saying those words to me.  I felt a lump in my throat while staring at her so i gulp my own saliva and look away to fade this feelings that i am feeling right now.

Nandito naman ako, pero bakit iba yung hinahanap nya. Narinig ko ang pagkabasag ng kanyang boses pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon.

I l-love him so much that even if it's hurts i c-can't stop myself from loving him. 

 P-pero ang hirap hirap palang makitang yung taong m-mahal mo iba ang yung hinahanap . Y-yung kahit na nandito naman ako sa tabi nya hindu nya pa rin ako makita malungkot nyang turan habang hinahagod ang buhok ni Jared kasabay ng pagbuhos ng mga luha sa kanyang mga mata.

Her tears fall like a waterfall after saying those words.

I don't know what to do , i am just sitting there stunned to all the words that  i heard coming from her mouth while my tears keep on falling . Ang sakit lang makita syang nasasaktan dahil sa taong mahal nya.

I feel her pain and i know how much it hurts kapag yung taong mahal mo ay binabalewala ka lamang.  I envy her for her courage to face this pain all by herself.  For a moment i realized that she is very strong woman, because i can see in her eyes how much she loves Jared and she'll do anything to make Jared happy despite of the pain that she's going through.

I exhaled deeply and went to her and give her some tissues.  She look at me with her sorrowful eyes and i only looked away hindi kinakaya ang bigat ng nararamdaman nya. 

I think we should go it's already 12midnight sabi ko kay Alex. 

Yeah,  she smiled at me weakly. 

'Jared let's go,  kinuha nya ang mga kamay ni Jared at hinala ito patayo.

Anne,  Jared said huskily. 

I was stunned for a moment when i heard him calling Alex in a wrong name.  I look at Alex and  saw pain cross in her eyes but when she look at me it immediately fade away.

Let's go.  I'll help you habang kinukuha ko na rin ang isang kamay ni Jared upang maakay sya paalis sa loob ng bar.

'Thank you Georgie nakangiting sambit ni Alex.  Pasensya na talaga at naistorbo kopa ang pag tulog mo ha?  Hindi ko kase alam gagawin ko kanina kung hindi ka lang dumating para tulungan ako.  

"Wala yon , hindi ka naman nakakaabala saka malapit lang naman sagot ko sakanya." 

Sige,  mauna na kami ha?  Paalam nya bago nya ko halikan sa pisngi at yakapin.  Goodnight,  ingat ka. 

Ingat din kayo sagot ko sakanya habang kinakawayan sya.  She only nod at me and smile before she maneuver  her car.

I smiled bitterly when i can't see her car on the parking lot . I sigh and  close my eyes firmly and i felt my tears suddenly fall .

Know were you stand Georgia i keep murmuring those words to myself while letting myself cry for a moment.