FOREVER [Niall Horan] ✔

Chapter 58.

I legit cried writing this chapter. I hope you all love it.
Enjoy x

Break my heart right- James Bay
Hollow- James Smith

"Never could I breathe love if I did not first learn to inhale a little bit of chaos." -Christopher Poindexter

Ana's POV

I put the wrapped canvas on the porch along with a small letter that I wrote and keep his house keys that he gave me under the garden sculpture where he usually keeps an extra key just in case.

"Is that my birthday gift, baby?" I flinch at his voice and turn around on my heels to see him fumble out of a cab. I gulp. He stumbles his way towards me, looking too drunk for ten in the morning, before caging me against the door. I scrunch up my nose when I realise that he is reeking of alcohol and God knows what. I try to push him away, but he doesn't budge.

My eyes start to twitch and I take a deep breath to calm my nerves. I didn't expect to see him. I thought that Niall wouldn't be here as he usually leaves for his work before ten and that I wouldn't have to deal with him after whatever happened last night. I didn't want to think about it or else I'll cry again as if I didn't just spend most of my night doing that.

I don't know how to feel about everything that he said to me. I thought he trusted me enough and would know that I would never do anything to hurt him, let alone break his heart like this. The thought of him thinking that I'll ever even think about cheating on him pains me.

I know what Niall walked in on definitely didn't look good but I didn't expect him to judge me so soon. I know he was hurt but he didn't even give me a chance to explain myself. He made assumptions about me and my character when I've never given him a chance to.

Everything that he said to me was like needles poking into my heart. I couldn't believe that Niall would think so low of me. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that Niall didn't trust me and it hurts. It hurts so much to even express. I was completely shattered and gutted about the whole ordeal and the fact that I don't know where we stand right now only adds more to my misery.

I love Niall, more than I've ever loved a guy, more than I've ever loved anyone else. My heart would physically ache whenever he wasn't near me, my body would tremble under his soft touch, my breath would quicken or would completely stop just at the thought of him. That's how much control he has over me and to think that he thought otherwise, breaks my heart.

"Is it for me, baby?" He repeats as I try to cover my nose with my arm to restrict the smell of alcohol. "But didn't we break up, yesterday? I thought I made that clear." He cups my cheek and plays with the strand of my hair that has fallen on my face. "Or do you still think that I'll forgive you after whatever you've done with this stupid birthday present that you've got me," He slurs and steps closer to me. I feel a pang in my heart at his words.

I take a long breath as I take in his words. But didn't we break up, yesterday? keep playing in my head and I feel sick to my stomach. I know we fought last night and Niall left. but I didn't know that it actually meant we were over. Maybe he doesn't actually mean it and he's just angry and drunk and that's why he's saying what he is saying. That's probably it.

"Or maybe you don't want to believe the truth," My subconscious chimes in and I gulp. "You knew it was over. That's why you're returning his keys to him." I shake my head at myself and try to not focus on my subconscious.

"Let me go," I mumble as I try not to think too much about his words as he is drunk and he doesn't know what he's saying. "We should talk when you're sober-"