FOREVER [Niall Horan] ✔

Chapter 69.

V O T E AND C O M M E N T
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"I’ve never had a moment’s doubt. I love you. I believe in you completely. You are my dearest one. My reason for life." -Atonement by Ian McEwan

Niall's POV

I lay on the bed, eyes wide open, as I try to wrap my head around everything that Ana told me. I let out a groan in my hands before turning on my side to look at her, she's looking so peaceful and beautiful as always but there are dried tears on her cheeks. I push the strand of her hair out of her face and trace the back of my hand against her cheek. She hums in her sleep and a small smile reaches my lips. "I'm so sorry, I wasn't there for you tonight," I say in a soft voice. "But I promise you that I'll never let you down again," I vow and lean to kiss her temple.

I'm feeling very exasperated, mostly at myself for not being there for her and Jo. If I were there, I would've fucking slit his throat, first for abusing Ana and then for having the nerve to continue it and dragging my sister into it. I don't even want to imagine what could have happened if Zayn wasn't there, I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if something ever did and I'm fucking terrified, not of that fucking coward who is afraid to even come in front of us but of Ana being hurt and now of Jo, too.

I'm not sure how she even knows Tyler and what was she doing at the club when she's not even legal! I don't know how she managed to get herself into so much trouble and I'm very mad at her right now but I want to be there for her and make her understand the kind of guy Tyler is. The first thing that I'm gonna do in the morning is definitely talk to her, as calmly as I can, about how she knows him. Even though I deeply hope that Jo is not involved with him, a part of me knows that she is and I fucking hate that fact.

I'm very lost right now and I don't know what I'm going to do or how am I going to find him. This has been dragged for far too long and I'll not let him continue it anymore. I want Ana to be free from her past and for her to not worry about that prick anymore and I'm going to do it as soon as possible.

My mind is very fuzzy right now and all I want is for it to be clear of thoughts about what had happened and think about some way I can make everything right. So I do the best I can and sit on the bed, pick out a pack of cigarette and lighter from the drawer before carrying them to the balcony.

Ana has constantly been there for me, helping me get over this addiction, and I think we had been doing great but I can't help it anymore. I just want it in my system so that it can help me think clearly and make me feel a little better.

I light the cigarette before keeping it in between my lips and inhaling it. I lean against the railing as satisfaction fills my lungs. After smoking three of them, I finally decide to do something about the situation. The only thing that came to my mind was asking Louis for help. I originally planned to call him tomorrow since it is too late but then I decide to go for it, not wasting any time. I quickly walk back inside after putting out the cigarette, pick up my phone and dial Louis. He picks the phone on the seventh ring.

"Louis."

"Hey, is everything alright?" He groggily speaks, concern clear in his voice. "It's four in the morning."

"I don't know," I say and massage my head. "Can you come here? It's important," I ask and hear shuffling from the other side.

"Yeah, sure. I'll be there in fifteen," He says, before hanging up.

I lock my phone before keeping it on the shelf behind me and getting back in the bed next to Ana. She rolls over and snuggles herself into my chest and I do the same, pulling her dangerously close to me. I'm so petrified of her getting hurt and it kills me to even think about losing her, I can't even imagine how she must be feeling. She's already been through a lot and I hate that she still does.