It had been a week and no flat was available, Mike said it might take months before I find one. I guess I'm here to stay, Ryan was happy about that but I was genuinely excited about living by myself and seeing the world outside the dumping ground. The universe was keeping me here for a reason, like I was supposed to stay here for a reason. I hoped that reason wasn't Ryan, I stood by what I said by following my heart. My head hadn't been much help, I needed some kind of closure.
I almost went back to where I was almost twelve months ago, not speaking a word or showing interest in anything. I just sat on the bench with my arms around my knees, I had my headphones on and I was listening to oasis.
'All around the world' was the song that was playing ironically.
I used to think I had it all, the home, friends and a boyfriend. I feel like those first few years here were all a dream, I've woken up almost five years later and here I am, no boyfriend and I've got friends but I've changed. I've gone from being the boss of this place, the one who fought a lot and was bruised. The loud, crazy and mouthy Irish girl and Liam's girl.
Now I'm still sarcastic, I'm pessimistic most of the time and I'm numb. I'm tired and maybe moving away was the only chance I had at finding out who I actually am, I have many questions about my life. "Let me guess, therapy has taken it out of you and your not in the mood for my games?" Ryan said as he sat beside me, I smiled "Your alright Ryan, I'm just thinking" I sighed and he rubbed my back, "What's got you thinking blue eyes? I could do with a distraction" Ryan said and I asked "What's wrong Ryan?" I asked as I noticed his uneasiness and he sighed "My sister keeps writing to me, she misses me and I miss her so much but she won't like the person I've turned into. She's also called Chloe, which is also the reason I call you blue eyes most of the time but you do have beautiful eyes" I blushed a little and said "Well, I say let her in Ryan she might be what you need right now. I'd be the same with my sister, she has no idea what my life has been like and I don't know if she'll ever know. But she's your sister Ryan, don't let your mistakes push her away. If I've learned anything in this life is that family is important, I have Stevie and this lot here. I may not have a mother's love but I turned out some what okay, don't loose your head but follow your heart" I said and I seemed to make him smile, "Thanks Chloe, you can be very wise when you want to. No wonder your queen around this place" Ryan replied and I laughed "My days of running this place are almost done, they don't need me anyway. Their fine" I was right, I didn't need to run this place. You could say I stepped down and the crown is free to anyone who can handle it, everyone is their own boss in this life.
"You know that's not true Chloe, I saw their faces when they thought you were leaving. It's like you cancelled Christmas, you clearly have an impact. You've had an impact on me, your important around here blue eyes".
The day went on and I got bored of the same four walls of my bed room, I decided to go out on my bike and see where the wind takes me.
Before I left Mike called me into the office, "Chloe!" I put down my helmet and went to see what he wanted, "What's up mike?" I said as I walked in and he sighed "I just had a phone call from your college, they can't run the music course due to staff shortages so you'll have to go Talbot Ward which is a little far from here." Mike explained and I said "I just started to get into it mike, what about my gig at the bar?" Typical, just when I actually want to try I end up back to square one. "The music course is perfect at Talbot ward Chloe, you'll adjust. You've come so far, a little set back is normal" Mike assured me and I smiled "I know mike, I'm just scared I'll end up the zombie again, and if I do end up where I was last year, I'm scared I'll stay like that" I was worried and May-Li chimed in "Chloe, you'll be fine okay? Your strong and mike and I both agree you can do it" May-Li encouraged with a smile.
And here I go I guess, new college.
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Whilst you were gone.. ('The Irish Girl' Sequel) (DG fanfic)
FanfictionIt had been a year since Liam left, a year of pain and heartbreak. Chloe had been catatonic the moment Liam left her arms. She knew letting him go was the right thing to do, he went to live with his brother. Eventually she got better and a new boy a...
