It had been a year since Liam left, a year of pain and heartbreak. Chloe had been catatonic the moment Liam left her arms. She knew letting him go was the right thing to do, he went to live with his brother.
Eventually she got better and a new boy a...
"Liam, he goes here too" Jack admitted and I struggled to get my words out, I felt my chest rip open but I had the urge to see him. My heart began to pound, "W-Where is he?" I asked and he shook his head "Chloe, you don't want to jump in. Are you even okay?" And I laughed "Don't lie to me jack, please" and he sighed "Chloe I don't know if I can tell you" I began to shake as I said the last words through my teeth. "Jack, it's been over a year and I wouldn't have asked if it still affected me. I'm going to ask you one more time, where.is. he?" I glared and he pointed down the long corridor, "He should be in the plumbing section" and before he could say anything I ran down the corridor. "Chloe!" Jack called after me, he didn't bother running after me. I ran as fast as I could down the long corridor, I felt my heart pound. My breathing was heavy but the urge to see him made it easier to run. I stopped at where Jack told me he'd be, I went into the room and my heart dropped. I saw Liam, he was still the same as I remembered. Apart from the jacket, he wore a grey one with leather sleeves. I cried as I smiled, "Liam?" And he turned around, his face lit up. "Chloe?!" Liam ran towards me, he hugged me I missed his scent and his warmth, I had always felt complete when I was in his arms. I had missed it so much it made my chest hurt. He was still unbelievably handsome no actually, he was still beautiful. Liam still smiled that beautiful crooked smile, that knocked me off my feet. He was still the same, only a little taller and his voice was deeper. The pain in my chest was numb, but not completely but I was too distracted by Liam. I couldn't feel it, I was a little overwhelmed but I was hit with all different emotions. I was happy, sad and a little angry. "Liam, oh" I sobbed and I couldn't get my words out, "You have no idea how much I've missed you" Liam said tears fell from his eyes, "I was so sure, I'd never see you again" Liam continued and I couldn't reply, my lungs closed up. "I don't know what to say" I just managed to push out and Liam noticed there was something different, I was hesitant. "Chloe, what's wrong?" He asked and I sobbed, "I'm sorry, I'm just trying to see if I'm dreaming or not" I sounded stupid but I hadn't been myself for ages and Liam didn't know the half of it. "Why don't we go for a walk?" Liam suggested and I nodded. "Jack told me, you wasn't talking or eating" Liam began and I looked at him confused, "Wait, how did he know?" I asked and he said "Mike told him, I know you told frank to lie to me" Liam told me, "I'm sorry, I just went a little crazy when you left. It's a long story" I wanted to tell him but I wasn't sure how he'd take it. I sighed and he said "I have all the time in the world Chloe, I won't get freaked out or mad. I've been worried about you" I sighed. "It all started well, before you left. I had this pain in my chest the moment you told me you were leaving, I was able to keep it hidden because you were still there but when you left me in the road I had given up, I was in pain the whole time but it hit me bad from that day onwards. And as you know I was basically catatonic, as the doctor said. I didn't want to move, talk or even think of you. I woke up most nights screaming, one night I kicked off." I stopped for a second, the memories of the worst year of my life were still hard to talk about. Even though Liam's right beside me, I still struggle. "Tracy was talking about you and everyone joined in, I got so angry I screamed at them and threw plates and chairs around. That was when I started to get worse, to the point I never moved from the chair in front of the window. They all thought I was going to end up doing something stupid, Mike wasn't sure what to do. The days seemed like a blur, I was so taken over by everything I felt. Pain, loss and knowing I'll probably never get over it, Mike got me a therapist and it's helped a lot. It's only been a few months since I got myself back together, I started eating again and smiling. I clean a lot, more than I ever did but I'm not fully healed Liam. It wasn't just you leaving it's a lot of things in my life, but I guess you held me together" Liam couldn't believe what he was hearing, "That's why I didn't want to leave you, I knew it. But you told me to go, I wish I had tried harder to help but I was told not to" I raised my hand and stopped him from carrying on, "Wait, your telling me you were told to stay away?" I asked and he said "Yeah, Jack got told by Mike that he wasn't sure if me visiting you for one day would make much of a difference. Apparently it would've made you worse, I wanted to call you or write but I couldn't find the words or courage. I was a mess too" I rubbed his back and said "At least you didn't go crazy like I did, at least you held it together. And you think I'm the strongest?". Liam sat on the bench and I sat beside him, "Chloe, you've faced so many things and you were part of a gang at a young age. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain, I wanted to believe frank. I could picture you singing your heart out and dancing around the house like you used to, Frank told me that's what you were doing. But I knew there was something wrong, I can sense it Chloe, since I met you I've been able to tell with you and it's because I love you I guess it never went away, I can't forgive myself if you ever ended up hurt or worse. I know what your going to say, but your right I did hold you together and you held me together as well as the rest of the dumping ground, I know it's been a while and you probably feel different but I don't, I've never stopped loving you or thinking about you. My beautiful Irish girl, who turned my world on it's head" That made me smile, but I can't say that I'll take him back. I want to so badly but with what's happened and what's going on with me and Ryan, I'm not so sure. "Liam, I can't say we'll be back together in one hit. It's been a hell of a ride and I'm sorry but things changed and I've changed, but the way I feel about you hasn't but..." I couldn't do it to him, I felt horrible. "But what?" Liam asked looking confused and I said "Well, I haven't got a new boyfriend if that's where you think I'm heading but I've had a thing with Ryan, a new kid back home and he's nothing like you. But he's okay I guess, I hated him at first he used to try and dig some dirt on me to try and torment me but as you know I'm untouchable but I don't know what it is, but I know in my heart I'll never have a relationship with him because I'm loyal to you and I love you but I don't know what I'm going to do, it's all just happening so fast and I don't know what to do" I told him and he lifted my chin with his finger and held my gaze, "Chloe, no one said you must decide now. I haven't ever doubted you, but know this. Ryan or whoever he is, will never love you the way I do or know you like I do. He might know some of you but I know all of you, I know what makes you happy, sad, angry and laugh. Your the girl who stole my heart, the girl who believed in me when no one else did. And if you choose to leave us where it is, then I won't judge you but I can't say it won't hurt. But if you choose to have me again, I'll be the happiest boy in the world because you Chloe Stone, make me the happiest" how could I break his heart? I knew I couldn't go there with Ryan and now I've seen Liam again and he's here, and it's not my imagination. I want him, I want to kiss him right now and take him away on my bike and never look back. But I have to put myself first, I have to be in the right mindset and there's so much he still doesn't know. Like me being a serpent again, or my little hallucinations of him. "Liam, I just need to get better first. I can't make a decision when I'm in this mess, yes you may be back in my life and I'm so happy but it doesn't un do the damage of the past year. I'm still damaged, I can't put it on you. I love you with all my heart, don't think for one second that's changed because it's the reason I'm not with Ryan and the reason I forced myself to get up everyday and try, but for now I have to get better. Please, understand that" I explained and Liam nodded "Chloe, it's fine okay? Anyway, what are you doing here?" He asked and I joked "I had roxy track you down and I've been plotting your demise" I smiled. Liam laughed "You haven't changed a bit clo" and I continued "My old college couldn't run the music course anymore so I ended up here" Liam smiled, "I'm glad your here Chloe, I'm so sorry I left you" he kept apologising but it's not his fault, "Liam, you don't need to apologise, I was the one who pushed you remember? I wanted you to be happy" and he hugged me. "I know, and I read your letter all the time and I heard your voice in my head telling me to man up" Liam chuckled and I smiled "Well, you can't deny words of wisdom eh?". I got up and Liam said "Where you going?" My phone rang and it was Ryan. "I got to take this" I answered and he said "Come home, I need to see you" and I said "Okay, but I've had a very long day" and I hung up and went back inside to find my helmet. "You have a bike?" Liam said amazed as I showed him my bike.
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"It was a present, and I'd love to tell you more lee but I have to go. Mike wants to see me" I said putting on my helmet, I half told him the truth. "Can I hop on too?" Liam asked and I sighed "I really have to go Liam, maybe next time?" I got on my bike after I put my gloves back on. Liam waved as I rode off.
