superficial | twilight

34 - Letters In The Rain

AN// short but emotional chapter, I cried writing it! :(

They all stand around the grave, dressed in black and under umbrellas. Of course it would rain at her funeral. Of course. Kali steps forward, into the rain. "She wrote these for you all... Esme. Caius. Jacob. Billy. The Cullen's. And the pack. And someone called Charlie."

She quietly hands them out. Caius walks away, under some trees, to read the letter alone. He takes a deep breath and opens it, sinking down to sit as he does.

My dearest brother.
How I wish we had more time with each other... If you're reading this, then it means we didn't. Somehow we've lived 3000 years and yet we had barely any time with each other. But my sacrifice means you can be free, so can the Cullen's, Billy, Jacob... We are all free of her curse.
I wish I could hug you one more time.
I wish I could go to Greece with you and go to our spot.
Will you go for me? Bring a photo of me and leave it somewhere in the cave. That way I'll always be there.
I ask one thing of you, brother...
Learn to live just a little.
One day we'll be together again. One day, I can annoy you for the rest of eternity.
I love you, Cai.
If I say anymore I might just break... So this is all you get.
Look after Jacob for me?
Love, your baby sister x

Caius cries a little, the venom burning in his eyes. "Why did you leave me!" He whispers, scrunching up the letter. He throws it, staring at it for a moment before he rushes to grab it and smoothes it perfect again. He hangs his head and looks back at the group, reading everyone's expressions at their letters.

Charlie Swan stands by his wife, her hand rubbing his back as he opens his letter. He's learned far too much about what the people in his lives are, but he can't process that right now.

Charlie Swan, you are like a father to me. If it wasn't for you, I would been found out waaay too soon and we wouldn't have had all that fun.
No fishing trips, no camping. No boating and hiking. You wouldn't have shown me how to shoot when I was a kid and I wouldn't know self defence. I wouldn't have made it through high school without what you taught me - though I wouldn't have been sent home for a week without it either. It's okay, I never told mom or dad you taught me that.
Keep my dad sane, kay? He'll really need you.
I love you x

Esme is the most devestated. Hers says;

Esme. Momma. My angel.
Another person I wish I had more time with...
In no way did you ever try to replace my mom, but I think we helped us see that it was okay to care for one and other. It was okay for me to let you take care of me. And for that I am beyond thankful. There isn't much I can say to you because I know how hurt you'll be. And I am so very sorry for that.
But I know you of all people will understand what I did - I saved my family. I saved you and Caius. Jake, Ness, everyone. I saved them. And you can keep your family together.
Under my bed, in the blue journal, you'll find some drawings. Me and you. We never got a picture together but I did draw us together. I wish we did, but it's too late now. Cherish them, okay? I know you will.
I love you, Ma.
King x

"Why do I keep losing my babies..." Esme whispers.

Carlisle kisses her head and rubs her back, staying quiet.

The next to read their letter is the Cullen siblings. Edward reads it aloud for them.

"You horrible lot, what can I say other than I'm free?"  They all give a weak laugh. "Kidding, of course. I want to thank you all for taking me in and letting me gatecrash your family. Bella, thank you for saving me more times than I can imagine - I owe you. Edward, stay out of people's heads okay? And annoy Jacob for me. You too, Emmett. Make sure you reaaaally get on his last nerve. Jasper - you kept me alive more than I'd like to admit. It was annoying, and intrusive, but I wouldn't be here if you didn't snitch on how I was feeling. "

Jasper smiles a little. "Glad to be of service, ma'am."

"if you just said ma'am, I definitely rolled over in my grave. Too soon? Okay. Alice and Rose - oh Rose, I'll miss you. Thank you for being my sisters for all intents and purposes. Can't say I enjoy shopping anymore, but you sure gave it your best shot. And Carlisle - sorry, I didn't have time to write you your own letter. But know that I'll always be by your side, every time you save someone I'll be there cheering you on. I promise.
And make sure Ness knows she's an awesome kid. And to look after Jake for me.
I love you all. "

Rose takes a shaky breath. "I'm gonna miss her... Ew, I said that out loud."

Jacob sits the furthest away in the rain, on a bench all by himself. He stares at the soaked letter, not sure if he wants to open it - he isn't ready. How can he be? This isn't how it was supposed to go.

Jacob Black. Asshole. Cuddle bear. Pain in the ass. My hero.
You'd never hear those words come from my lips so you better treasure this letter, you jerk!
Gosh, where would we be if I hadn't have come here? You'd be as moody as ever. Dad would have more hair maybe, but he'd eventually go bald. And you wouldn't have to put up with your enemies being related to you. Oh well.
I definitely don't forgive you for how you used to be. I didn't deserve any of that... But you didn't deserve the gene. Or for the mess I bought, the pain I caused. So I guess we're even.
Know that I died with so much love and respect for you.
Know that you are one of the most important people to me and I hope I got to hold your hand one last time. I really hope I got to.
Please don't blame yourself, this is my mess. Hence why I fixed it - hopefully.
Keep an eye on Cai for me? And Esme. Make sure to hug her, she needs it.
I love you.
King x

"Why did you leave me..." He whispers, tears rolling down his cheeks and mixing with the rain.

Bella silently sits beside him and wraps her arms around him, holding him close. He pulls her into him and cries, clinging to her. "I know..." Bella whispers, rubbing his back.

Billy saves his letter for later. When he makes it home, he goes straight to his room where he can be alone. He can't stomach food right now anyway, but he can't eat. How can he? He climbs into bed and opens the letter with shaky hands.

Dad.
We never got the chance to fully fix what was going on between us... That's one thing I'll always regret. But know I love you with all my heart. I truly do. I wouldn't change a thing about us. None of it.
I may have moaned and whined through it all, but it's some of my best memories. By the way, uncle Charlie was the reason I got kicked out of school that one time - ask him about it. And if he denies it, tell him I told you.
Tell Rachel and Rebecca I love them - we never fixed that either.
But I promise I'll keep an eye on you all - you won't be rid of me that easy.
Love you, pa x