Loving the Broken Hearted Man(COMPLETED)

Chapter 26

Dahan-dahan kong minulat ang aking mga mata. Bumungad sa akin ang puro puting tanawin. Ginalaw ko ang aking kamay at naramdamang mahapdi ito. I moved it again, but still I can feel the pain. I also tried to moved pero naramdaman ko ang sakit sa aking tiyan.

"M-maureen." I heard someone's voice. I find that person who's calling me. I looked around and saw Jia in my side.

"H-how's my baby?" Naiiyak na tanong ko.

Gulat siyang napatingin sa akin. "Y-you knew?"

Tumango ako, I remembered what happened. Dinugo ako, i'm being careful since the day I learned that I'm pregnant. Simula nung sinabi ni ate na may possibility na buntis ako, doon pa lang I started to feel uneasy. I'm being extra careful to what I am doing, every morning i'll have my morning sickness and sometimes I felt like I don't wanna go up to my bed because of dizziness. Also, there are times that I hate the smell of the food. I remember how I tried to eat the pinakbet while we are in the restaurant.

"H-how's my baby, Jia?" Kinakabang pag-ulit ko ng tanong.

She sighed and sat beside me. "It's safe. Luckily, malakas ang kapit ng baby mo. Sabi lang ng doctor mo ilayo ka namin sa stress and such kasi makakasama yun sayo."

Nakahinga ako ng maluwang. My baby is safe, we are both safe, thanks God! I tried to move again but it feels like i'm still in pain. "Hey, don't move too much." Paalala sa akin ni Jia.

I stop moving at pinikit na lang ang aking mga mata. Trying to console myself that everything is okay. Trying to make myself that i'm fine. Ang hirap rin pala kapag ikaw na lang rin mismo ang nagpapalakas ng loob sa sarili mo.

"Is she awake?" A female's voice. I heard the door opened a while ago and it closes this time.

I opened my eyes and find the owner of the voice. "Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked her.

"Duh! Of course visiting you stupid." Malditang sagot ni Christine.

"Whatever buntis! So, do you have food with you? I'm fucking hungry!" I hissed at her. I saw Jia in my perepheral vision na biglang tumayo.

"Oh my gosh! I'm sorry cous, I didn't asked you if you're hungry!" Natatarantang aniya. "W-what food do you want?"

"I want ice cream! Cookies and cream also a ripped mangoes, yung sinasawsaw sa alamang!" I can feel my eyes twinkleng because of my cravings!

Binatukan ako ni Christine! "Hey! Careful!" My cousin exclaimed!

"Idiot, it's midnight. Saan ka makakakita ng mangga ng ganitong oras?" I pouted because of she said. Wala bang mangoes sa ganitong oras?

I was about to cry when someone entered my hospital room. I looked at the clear plastic bag that the person's holding! It's a fucking mango! "Look, mangoes!" I excitedly beem. Umayos ako at sinubukang umupo, inalalayan ako nila Jia para makaupo ng maayos.

The two girls stared at me but my eyes are fixed in the mangoe! Damn, I want it! "Idiot, look at the person." Bulong sa akin ni Christine.

I don't know why, but since the day we both learned that we are both pregnant naging ganito kami mag-usap. Parang dati inaaway niya ako because of someone! My gosh! Tinignan ko ang taong may dala ng mangga, parang bigla akong nawalan ng gana.

"O-oh, i'll just sleep na lang pala." Mahinang sabi ko at humiga na ulit.

Nagkatinginan sila Christine at Jia. "Hey, tell that person to leave. I don't want to see him." Malinaw at batid kong rinig niya.

"U-uh, Jayce just come back some other time." Christine's voice filled the four corners of the room.

"Maureen, let's talk." Pakiusap niya but I didn't even move para balingan siya ng pansin. I fixed the hospital blanket and pulled it up to my whole body.

"Tell him to leave!" This time i'm being mad! I'm getting irritated! Bakit ba ang moody kapag buntis?

"O-okay, i'll just come back tomorrow." He said. "Kahit 'wag ka na bumalik. I don't fucking need a user in my life!" Sigaw ko.

I heard him sighed before closing the door. I felt my tears rushing down my face. I am not ready to face him, i'm not ready to see him. Ang hirap, after what happened? After I learned that i'm being used because I have something that his girl once had. Ang hirap sobra, hindi ko alam kong paano ko siya pakikisamahan. Hindi ko alam kong kaya ko pa ba siyang makita, cause all I can fell right now is emptiness. I'm just trying to be strong because there's a baby relying in me. If I gave up, maybe my baby will be gone and I don't want that to happen. The girls didn't say anything, they just let me to cry until I fell asleep.
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I woke up in the middle of my deep slumber. I feel thirsty, and I wanted to drink. I tried to move my hand pero hindi ko ito magalaw at may mahigpit na kamay ang nakahawak dito. I'm still trying to moved my hand until the person who's holding it woke up.

He looked at me, but i'm still trying to removed my hand. "Let go of my hand!" Kalmado ngunit madiing sambit ko.

"O-oh, okay. I'm sorry." He whispered enough for me to heared it.

"W-what do you want?" He asked me but I didn't bother to answer him.

I reached the bottled water in the table, nilagay ata nila Jia kanina ang mga yun. I'm trying to opened it but I can't. I looked at Jayce and handled the bottle to him. "Opened it." Masungit na ani ko. Binuksan niya ito at inabot sa akin. Nagsimula na akong uminom at halos makalahati ko na ang tubih ng ibalik ito sakanya. Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga at pumikit muli.

"Can we talk?" Untag niya. Muli kung idinilat ang mga mata ko at bumalik sa pagkakaupo.

I faced him. "What are we going to talk about?"

"About your pregnancy. Why you didn't tell me?"

I look thoroughly in his eyes. "If I tell you, may magbabagp ba?"

"Atleast, you should tell me about it. I know it's mine cause when we did it I knew I was your first." Madiing aniya.

I shook my head. "If I tell you about it, will you look at me because I am Maureen? Or you'll just look at me because I resembled that love of your life?"

He just stared at me. Minutes passed, still he's not answering my question. I smiled sarcasticly. "See? You can't even answer a goddamn question!"

"I'm sorry." He whispered.

Sorry? Yun lang? Tumawa ako ng mapakla. "I don't know, but when I learned about my pregnancy I have the guts not to tell you and now I know why." I paused. Huminga ako ng malalim habang pinipilit ang sarili kong huwag umiyak. "I am kinda curious why all of you are kinda fond of me. You adore me so much, I thought it's because i'm being me. I was wrong all along. You all adore me too much because I resembled someone who's close to your heart. I have her eyes, she let her eyes see the world and how cruel you all can be."

Bumalik ako sa pagkakahiga bago muling magsalita. "Don't worry, hindi ko naman ipagdadamot sayo ang magiging anak natin. I'll let you to see them when I gave birth, i'll let them meet you kahit sobrang gago mo. You can visit the baby all the time. You can spend time with the baby. You can do whatever you want, basta magpakatatay ka sa anak mo. Kahit wag na sakin, sa anak ko na lang."

I felt my tears rushing down my face. Agad ko itong pinunasan at tumingin muli sa kanya. "Leave, Jayce." Mahinang usal ko.

"I-I'm sorry." He said again.

"Your sorry can't erase the pain i'm feeling. It can't erase the fact that you fuckin used me. Just leave, please! Don't show up again, 'wag kang lalapit sakin! Just please! Leave!" I exclaimed.

I can't help it. It's too painful, I love him with all my heart yet I received pain in return. He stood up and looked at me with a sad eyes. Don't show emotions please, baka maniwala ko ulit. Dahan-dahan siyang tumalikod at naglakad pero bago pa man siya makalabas sinabi ko ang isang desisyon na alam kong ikakawasak ko.

"Jayce, let's break up."