Within The Lights. (Series)

Chapter 2 - Ghost Of You

 I said Cody would be waiting for me, right?

Right.

And the second I walked through the front door, guess who was the first person there to hug me?

Actually, it was my mother. Then Megan. Then Micheal. Cody just stood off to the side sort of awkwardly. Which was a bit of a relief, only it was not the good awkward, the kind that looks a bit nervous and vulnerable and a bit cute. No, it was the kind of awkward that makes him look like he wants to say something to somebody. And that somebody was obviously me, because the whole time I talked to everyone, he just watched. With the look in his eye that suggested the moment he got to me... Let's just say, with you knowing my story and history with this boy, you would not want to be in my shoes.

Or maybe you would. I'm not sure. Any fan of Cody would probably die to be in my shoes. And, five years ago, I would have, too. Only I've changed since then. Grown up. But that was then, and this is now. Now I realize that the sweet boy I saw was an asshole under a pretty face.

I guess I can't blame him entirely, because I wasn't the ideal girlfriend, either. In fact, I dated his cousin and his best friend. I would have been offended if he didn't hate me. He did, for a while. And I was grateful. And I was happy, with Greyson. At college. Then, one day, he decided not to hate me anymore.

I don't know what exactly it was that changed his mind like that, but it must have been effective because the boy I'd tried to forget for so long has come back to me yet again.

You'd think that, after 4-5 years of tug-of-war between us, he'd have finally moved on. Found someone else. But, no, he hasn't dated anyone since then. I'm not sure if it was because he didn't want to date, or if his career didn't allow him the time until recently, and i really don't care. He can do whatever he wants. As long as he leaves me out of it.

But, no matter how hard I try, he always comes back. Like a boomerang. And it makes sense, because both Cody and boomerangs are from Australia. I think. Are boomerangs from Australia? I'm not sure. Which is weird, because I'm a genius. Or, excuse me, supposed to be a genius. I let that title drop a long while ago. No more genius Macy Black. Sure, I'm still smart, but I don't show it as much anymore. I used to hide it, then i started to show it, and now I'm hiding it again. Whoops?

I bet you're wondering why he still wants me back despite everything we've been through. Or why I'm not on speaking terms with Ryan, or why me and Greyson hate each other... again. Or even why I'm writing to you directly. Well, it's because this is my book. I never said I was trying to please you, I'm just writing what happens to me. You might not like it, but hey, when did I ever say you had to read it? I'm just writing what I feel.

Anyway, Cody did eventually get me alone. Well, not alone, but he got to me.

“Hey.” He started, almost carefully.

“Hi.”

“What's new?”

“Not much.”

“Sounds fun.”

“Yup.”

The majority of the conversation went like that. I was wondering why he wasn't being as... Open as he had been in the past few months. Then I realized.

Turning around, I saw what he was so... I want to say nervous, but that wasn't really how to describe how he was acting. It was more... Suspicious. Of what, though? Me and Greyson? I haven't been on speaking terms with him for a while, either.

“Can I have a moment?” He asked, not even looking at me when he said it. He just shoved me to the side and walked by.

I watched as he approached him, slowly, carefully. He started to talk, and suddenly, Greyson's face turned angry. He clenched his fist, and I noticed him take a deep breath. After a minute or so, he turned on his heels and stormed away.