friends with benefits - draco malfoy

chapter twenty one

y/n's pov
'what, so he dove in front of you on purpose? did he see the bludger?' hermione asked, sounding the most puzzled i'd heard her since she'd managed to fail last years potions test. 'yeah' harry replied 'he took the hit for me. it would have kept chasing me until it had hit me otherwise'.
'but that doesn't make any sense!' ron whisper-shouted. the library was empty apart from us four, but we were still being quiet to be safe. we were supposed to be going over some of the plans for the DA, but we'd been sidetracked by harry's play by play of the match. 'maybe crabbe or goyle had been the ones to use magic on the bludger, and draco felt bad about it?' hermione suggested and ron scoffed.
'more like he didn't see it'
'what do you think y/n' harry asked, turning to look at me. i looked up at the three of them, staring at me waiting expectantly for a response. 'i think... that draco malfoy is a sour, selfish, mean boy that doesn't think of anyone but himself. there's no way he saw that bludger and purposefully sacrificed himself to save harry of all people, and if he did it would have probably been to get the attention of, i don't know, pansy parkinson or fleur delacour or, or someone. or maybe he was trying to get out of lessons for a couple days. i don't know, and i don't care' i fumed 'now can we please actually talk about the DA meetings because i am sick to death of sitting here like we're on an episode of the jeremy kyle show, trying to get a insight into draco malfoy's moral conscience when it's so obvious he doesn't have one'.
ron raised his eyebrows at me, obviously thinking i'd lost the plot. 'wellllll... that's that sorted' he said, turning to face hermione. i put my head back down to my book, and he screwed the two fingers in to the side of his head, signalling that i was crazy. 'ronald, i can still see you' i snapped, and he quickly pulled his hands down to his side. 'right, well now that's sorted' harry said 'what time are we meeting for the DA tonight?'.

i headed up the stairs after class, wanting nothing more than to have a hot shower and put my pyjamas on. it wasn't even like i could have an early night, because i'd agreed to meet the DA at eleven tonight. i paused as i passed draco's dorm, hearing his vinyl playing from inside. so he was back from the hospital then. i debated going in, hesitating outside of the door. 'shh' draco laughed from inside, and i froze when i heard a girl laugh back. so he had someone in there with him. great. i spun on my heel, storming down the corridor to the girls dorm. i wanted to throw myself on the bed and cry, but i was not going to give him the satisfaction of upsetting me again. 'you're being pathetic y/n' i told myself, rubbing my eyes hard to stop myself from crying 'you were never official, he clearly doesn't care about you, you've always known that really'. i knew i was right, but it still kind of sucked.

i showered quickly, pulling on my pyjamas and sitting on my bed. i grabbed my potions book from my bag, deciding i might as well get a start on the essay snape had set for us. i couldn't stop myself from wondering who the girl was. it wasn't pansy, because i could hear her irritating laugh from the courtyard below all the way up here. i shivered, realising it must be fleur. of course it was. it hurt to admit, but her and draco would look good together. they were around the same height, draco was only slightly taller, and she was impossibly pretty. i forced myself to push it out of my head, working on the essay. i worked for over a solid hour, barely noticing as the dorm filled up more and more as curfew drew nearer. i'd nearly finished the essay, and i was honestly pleased with myself. it wasn't like me to do my homework early, i usually needed the last minute panic to get anything done.

i stuffed my essay in my bag and turned off my lampshade, flopping down in bed. most people's lampshades were still on, it wasn't lights out for another half an hour, but i couldn't be arsed to talk to anyone. besides, the longer i laid still for, the more likely people would believe i was asleep. i lay, facing the wall, focusing on keeping my breathing as steady and even as possible. i could hear the other girls whispering on the other side of the dorm room for the first half hour or so, but it slowly died out the longer i waited. i looked over at the alarm clock, seeing it was ten to eleven and quietly sat up, pausing to see if anyone would notice. i'd have to be especially careful today, because i was actually going to have to return to the dorm after the meeting. it wasn't like i could just hideout in draco's room to avoid waking them up.

i slid my feet in to the converse i had kicked under my bed and quickly walked over to the door, not closing it all the way behind me to avoid making noise when i came back. i didn't run in to anyone on the way there, but i felt uneasy even so. i grinned at hermione as i entered the room of requirements, watching as she rolled her eyes and ron and harry squabbling over the last sweet in the bag. 'morons' she mouthed at me and i suppressed a giggle. 'so' i said to harry, attempting to put hermione out of her misery 'what are we doing tonight?'.