Blind Jealousy

Seeing You Like This

Shuichi POV~

I laid there on the floor for a solid 30 minutes, slowly the tears had faded and I had fully succumbed to my dreadful misery. I had never been this upset about anyone like this since Kaede's death... but Kokichi isn't dead? It just feels that way to me right now... my puffy eyes started to tear up again, but before I could sink back into my hole of despair a loud and sudden knock came to my door. I sat up too quickly and Immediately felt dizzy, as if I was going to fall back to the ground where I had been crying for so long. "SHUICHI?" my eyes widened at the sound of Kaito's prominent voice, basically out of pure fear. Shit! I totally forgot about going to the garden! What the hell do I do?? "Oh, uh- hi Kaito" I chocked, trying as much as I could to sound as if I hadn't been crying the past half an hour. "Where were you? We waited for you!" Oh god, what do I say?! I pulled myself from the ground and slowly pulled back the small peeking hole on my door to see Kaito, Mui, and Maki all standing there. Kaito looked quite concerned, yet the others looked extremely bothered. "I'm so sorry- I got my book and uh," I gotta put something together fast... how does Kokichi do this on the spot?? "And I got a little l-lightheaded so I headed back to my room and took a shower... I'm sorry." "There's no need to be." Maki finally spoke up "If you're feeling lightheaded then you should get your rest. We don't want our detective to be off his game when the time comes to solve another murder." Woah, that caught me off guard. Kaito began to protest to Maki "But we were all going to go t-" "Don't be like this." Maki bitterly cut him short, Kaito was a bit taken back and stopped talking, his mouth still half-open. "Shuichi." I jolted at the sound of her saying my name like that. I don't think I've ever heard her say my name like that before... "Y-Yes?" "Get some sleep. Tomorrow we can all go to the garden for real." I silently sighed in relief. Thank god for Maki... "Yeah, I-I'll do that." "Whattt?! You whores are so boring!" Mui loudly announced, "I wanted to hang out with all you hoes, now you're just making me upset." Maki glared at Mui and her mood suddenly changed. "I mean uh... yeah get your sleep or whatever Shuichi..." wow, Maki sure can work miracles with that look. "We will be in your room in the morning ok?" Maki's mood seemed to lighten just a bit as she said this. "Oh, that's ok. I-I'll be ready." "GREAT! Even if it's not today I'm still glad to get to hang out with my sidekick!" "I'm pretty sure he doesn't wanna be your sidekick Jackass." "HEY! TAKE THAT BACK!" their voices slowly faded as they walked back to the garden, leaving me alone, leaning against my door clenching my chest.

I wonder if she could hear the raspiness in my voice when I spoke I quietly wondered. I pushed myself off the door and slumped back onto my bed, my head almost smacking Directly into the wooden frame backboard. Maybe she's right... I just need sleep and I can go over all this in the morning. Yet that was the same thought I had the previous night. I lightly placed one hand on my chest and slipped the other behind my head, Beginning to stare at the ceiling yet again. How am I gonna fix this? I didn't think he'd be that upset... but I did kinda attack him... I sighed and rolled over to my side to find my clock. It was barely even noon, so I couldn't just stay in here all day... but I had nothing else to do. Plus, if I did leave the others would notice and realize I was lying. I shifted and propped myself up on the bed, observing the clean empty room. What can I do...? Normally when I got bored I would go out and find Kokichi, he was never boring. But... that's not an option at the moment. I slid myself to the side and picked up the book I had found myself at the library, silently flipping the cover open and beginning to start on the first page.

After what seemed as only mere minutes, I glanced at my clock to see it was now about 7 pm. I sat here and did nothing for that long? The day was so boring without- I stopped myself in an attempt to not upset myself. I placed my book down and used Kokichi's comic and a bookmark, it being the only thing I had at hand to use. I slowly advanced to the bathroom and began to prepare myself for an early turn-in. I placed my hat on the counter and began to rinse my face with icy cold water, shocking me a bit at first but eventually getting used to it. I dried myself and changed into an oversized t-shirt and a pair of shorts, closing the bathroom door behind me as I walked back to my bed. I pulled my warm blankets over me and curled myself up into a ball, starting to lose myself in thought again. All I could think about was that moment before the library... when Kokichi hugged me. In the moment I was so shocked and I pushed him away, but right now I would give anything to go back and just embrace him. I began to blush as I quietly grabbed a pillow and pulled it close to my chest. I want to hug him just like this and I calmly wrapped my arms around the pillow, imaging it as the purple haired boy. I then drifted off to sleep, still clutching the pillow tightly to my chest.

I slowly blinked myself awake and moved my arm to cover my eyes. My room was surprisingly bright despite the fact there was no real sunlight that could get in. I tilted my head slightly to the left and squinted to see the time. It's 6:50 am, why did I wake up so early? This meant I had about 10 minutes till Monokuma would release us from our rooms, so I pulled myself out of bed and began to get ready. I quietly brushed my teeth and changed into my daily clothes, hat included as always. "RISE AND SHINE STUDENTS!"

The sudden sound of Monokuma through the speakers almost made me lose my balance and almost fall over as I was leaning against the wall trying to put on my shoes. God he's loud.

"I hope you are all ready for a fun day! It's officially 7 am, so that means to get your lazy butts out of bed and get started with your day! You never know what awaits you, Maybe even your inevitable doom~"

There was a quick pause after that. "Puhuhuhu I'm just kidding! Enjoy the day students~" The speakers abruptly cut out leaving me in pure silence. "I need to get going," I said to myself.

I opened the door to see Kaito, Miu, and Maki already waiting for me. "Gah-!" I was considerably confused on how they had arrived so fast. "GOOD MORNING SIDEKICK!" Kaito violently patted me on the head as I stepped out of my room. "Don't hit him like that dumbass, what if he still has his headache?!" Miu grabbed at his arm and he turned to glare at her. "I'm fine," I spoke up timidly, "I feel a lot better now" "That's good." Maki smiled at me, something I had never seen before, and it was honestly kind of off-putting. "We should start going to the garden, it's all Kaito has been bothering me about." "HEY, I DON'T BOTHER YOU!" Kaito yelled after Maki as Miu and I walked close behind the two of them. They both bickered and Miu chimed in a bit here and there, and I slowly lost any interest in the conversation. That's when someone familiar turned the corner. It was Kokichi... along with Rantaro.

My eyes shot right in their Direction, forgetting all about the conversation I was apart of. Kokichi was walking close at the side of Rantaro, swinging back and forth as they walked towards us. Rantaro said something I couldn't make out, but I watched as Kokichi's eyes light up and he giggled. That pure giggle, the way his violet eyes glistened he looked at him, and the way he closely clung onto his arm... that's what he did with me... my heart sunk. Deep, deep into my chest. Seeing him like this, smiling and giggling with Rantaro... I felt as if I was swallowing my pride as a stared at them walking down the hallway laughing together. Rantaro looked up from Kokichi and meet my eyes, seeing them begin to glisten since I felt as if I was on the verge of tears. He half heartedly smiled and pulled Kokichi closer as we walked directly past each other. "You're so adorable," he said loud enough for me to hear "Kokichi~" 

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Wow, this one is longgg! This is for sure my longest chapter yet! I've had this whole thing for a long time now, but I've never actually made it into a real story, so I've been cranking out tons of chapters! I started writing yesterday and put out 1-4, and today I plan on posting chapters 5 and 6! Thank you sm for reading and I was so shocked to see I already have 18 views (in all) after I posted the first part yesterday! I plan on making many many more stories so please check those out when they are published! I wish you the best of luck with your day gorgeous/handsome <3
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