One Last Time //Lams//University AU//Part 1

Chapter 38

March 11 2018
Thursday

Alex POV
Exams are in a few days and I'm low-key stressing. Everyone says I shouldn't be because I know all the work but I feel like they're gonna add a question I don't know and it scares me more then anything.

I'm walking to Lafayette and Hercules' dorm because that's where we hang out after school now. Before I can get there I am once again shoved into a wall, "You do realize you could have gotten me expelled right?" Jefferson asks angrily, "Yes and if you do this again you will be expelled." I say.

His expression goes from angry to sly as he pushes me down, "You deserve punishment." he whispers in my ear, "I deserve punishment for being punished?" I ask in a sarcastic tone but inside my heart is racing and I'm scared out of my mind. He stands up quickly pulling me up with him and drags me to the other side of the hall and into a dorm.

It's his and Burrs dorm. I struggle to break free of his grip but he's moving so fast that I'm having trouble keeping my balance. He runs me to his room and pushes me down onto his bed pinning me. I try and kick him off but stop when he begins to really hurt me.

"Let me go!" I scream, he ties a cloth around my mouth so all I can do is make noise. He unzips my jacket and pulls off my shirt along with my pants and underwear, he then ties me to the bed with roap.

Tears begin to stream down my face as he undresses himself and begins to kiss my chest.

~time skip~(brought to you by the person who wrote rape as their first smut and now hates themself for it)

Jefferson left to run some errands, not before giving me 'punishment', twice. I'm still gagged and tied to the bed. I hear shuffling from beyond the wall. I begin to knock my head against it. There's silence for a few seconds and then someone on the other side knocks back.

I start screaming, "Hello?" someone says from behind the wall, "Mmmm!" I say back, "Do you need help or something?" they ask, "Mmhmm!" "I'll take that as a yes." I hear footsteps and then the dorm door being unlocked, the door opens and a guy walks in, "Oh my God!" he yells looking at me, he walks over and undoes my left hand, then my right hand, I sit up taking the gag off.

I undo my right foot and he undoes my left, I get off the bed grabbing my underwear that's on the floor. "Thank you." I say, he looks at me scared, "Was that...?" he asks, I nod my head looking around the room for my clothes. They're not here. I open Jeffersons closet and pull out a pair of jeans and a hoodie putting them on.

"Thank you." I say again as we both leave the dorm. "Do you want me to walk you to your dorm?" he asks, "No, no I'm fine." I say and begin walking to Herc and Lafs dorm. If I know my friends, and I do, they're probably all over the school looking for me.

I open the door to see John on the phone pacing the room, he looks up at me as I enter and almost drops his phone. "Alexander.." he says running up to me and hugging me tightly, "Where have you been? We've been looking every-" he trails off as I push him off of me. He looks at me with confusion and hurt in his eyes as I walk into the bathroom and lock the door.

John POV
Alexander just pushed me away. He's never done that. He locked himself in the bathroom and won't come out, I call Hercules.

"Herc, he's here, he came back."
"When?!"
"Right now, he locked himself in the bathroom."
"That's never good, does he have his knife?"
"He's not even wearing the clothes he was this morning, of course he doesn't have his knife."

That's when I hear glass shatter and my heart skips a beat.

"I think he just broke something."
"Shit!"
"Get back now!"

I hang up and run to the bathroom door, "Alexander! Open up please!" I yell banging on the door, he doesn't respond. "Alexander!"

The group comes running in and up to the door, "Alexander open the door!" Peggy yells desperately, Angie runs into Lafs room and comes back out with a wire, we move aside and she begins to pick the lock, "When did you learn to do that?" Lafayette asks, "I didn't want John to dislocated his arm again." she admits.

She manages to unlock the door and we run in. Alex is sitting on the floor under the sink, he's not wearing the hoodie anymore and he's covered in blood, the mirror is cracked and there are several shards of glass on the floor, one of which is covered in blood.

His cheeks are tear stained and he's staring at the wall. I kneel down in front of him, "Alexander..." I say, he doesn't look at me. I look up at Angie whose already running in with the first aid kit and a wet cloth. She wipes away the blood and I bandage his arms, shoulders and his stomach.

He shuts his eyes and breathes in a shaky breath letting more tears roll down his cheeks. Lafayette picks up the hoodie and looks at it, "Alexander, who's hoodie is this?" he asks, "And those jeans." Eliza adds. We look at him as he opens his eyes and looks back at the wall.

"Jefferson." he says and we all stare at him in shock. I feel tears roll down my cheeks as I realize what happened. Angelica stands up, "That's it." she says about to walk out, "Don't!" Alexander yells looking at her, "Don't. Tell. Anyone."

I look at him with wide eyes, "A-Alexander-" "Don't!" we all look away from him. I reach my hand out but he doesn't take it, I can understand why. "Alexander..." I whisper. He gets up and walks out of the bathroom, they run after him but I stay kneeled on the floor staring at the scattered blood and shards of glass.

"John-" Hercules says from behind me, he puts his hand on my shoulder, "Is this my fault?" I ask inaudibly, "What?" he asks, "Is this my fault?" I repeat louder, "No! Of course it's not!" he says kneeling down next to me. "This is Jeffersons fault."

He pulls me up, "We can clean this later. Your boyfriend needs you right now." he begins to walk out but I don't move, "N-No, I'm the last person he needs." I say, I leave the bathroom without even glancing at the group on the couch, grab my coat and leave.

He doesn't need someone to kiss or hold him. Not after this. I don't know where I'm going but all I know is that I'm going somewhere far away from him.