One Last Time //Lams//University AU//Part 1

Chapter 44

March 18 2018
Thursday

Alex POV
I walk down a narrow passage, I can hear voices from somewhere. I walk till I see a door, it's open slightly and I can hear the voices coming from inside. There's soft moaning and heavy breathing.

"Yes!" it's a female voice, she seems happy. "You like that don't you?" says another voice, a male one. It's familiar to me. I open the door and step inside. There are rows and rows of desks, it's a classroom. There is a girl sitting on one of the desks, she's half naked.

There is a guy kissing down on her neck, he's half naked too. He looks up, my eyes widen and my heart drops as I realize who he is. "John..." I whisper. He looks at me without moving, "Alexander." he replies. I turn around and run down the narrow hallway.

I can feel as the world around me begins to crumble. I try to avoid the holes in the floor but I miss a step and fall into the black abyss. I try to scream but my voice is gone. I just keep falling and falling, never reaching the ground.

I wake up in a cold sweat. I can feel the tears streaming down my face as I quietly get up, putting underwear on and pulling on a hoodie, making sure not to wake John who's still asleep. I walk into the lounge. It's 1:54 am. I open the doors to the balcony and step out into the cold night air.

I walk to the edge of the balcony and lean out on the rail over looking the city. Bright lights and fast cars, people trying to get back to their warm beds after a long day of work. Tears fall from my cheeks as I rest my head on my arms.

John POV
It's cold. I reach my good arm out looking for my warmth aka Alexander but I can't find him. I open my eyes slightly, he's not there. I groan as I get up, putting underwear on and a shirt. I walk out into the lounge. The balcony doors are open so I walk out there. Alexander is leaning on the railing with his head on his arms.

"Alexander?" I ask conserned. He looks at me for a moment but then puts his head back down. I walk up next to him and put my hand on his arm, he doesn't recoil or stiffen which is always a good sign when it comes to him.

I pull him off the railing and make him stand in front of me. He doesn't look at me. "Hey, what's wrong?" I ask softly, I lift his chin, he avoids eye contact. He's been crying. I hold his shoulder and he drops his head again. "Alexander..."

He moves towards me and rests his head against my chest. I pull him into an embrace and he clings onto my shirt slightly. He starts crying again and I rub his back.

I feel as he completely collapses and I catch him before he falls, I lower us both down as he begins to sob. "Hey, it's alright. It's alright." I say softly trying to calm him down. I hear him take a small gasp of air which didn't really sound like it was supposed to be breathing and then his grip on my shirt tightens.

His breathing gets faster as he begins to have a panic attack. I pull him off me and make him look at me properly. "Alex listen. I need you to breath!" I say sternly. He shakes his head no and continues to hyperventilate. His grip on me gets tighter to the point where it starts to hurt.

"Alexander please! Breath for me!" I beg. He opens his mouth probably to say something but then doesn't and closes his mouth again. He starts breathing and let's go of me clasping his hands to his throat.

I immediately go for his hands, scared he's about to strangle himself but then realize that's not what he's doing. He opens his mouth again, trying to speak but nothing happens. My eyes widen as I realize what's wrong.

"Alexander can you speak?" I ask, he once again opens his mouth but fails to speak. I grab one his hands and pull it off his throat, he rests the other one at his side. He drops his head again as tears stream down his cheeks, I pull him back into my chest. "It's alright, it's gonna be okay." I say softly.

I kiss his forehead and help him stand up. "Let's go back to sleep, we can sort this out in the morning." I say, he silently nods and we walk back to bed. He clings onto me again and I hold him tight in my arms as we fall back asleep.