I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~ Hiding ~

Bakugou POV
The movie finishes and I see Deku half asleep, he closes his eyes and he falls onto my lap. I shake him wanting him to wake up so he can get off my lap, and Mina whacks me over the head.
"Don't wake him up!" She whisper yells
I scoff and just let him sleep. I look back down to the sleeping boy on my lap, and I can't help but to think that he looks cute.
"Yo, are you blushing?" Kirishima asks me, mocking the faint blushing on my cheeks
"FUCK YOU! I WOULD NEVER!!" I yell at him, too loudly because I wake Deku up
He gets up and asks, "Did I fall asleep?"
"Yeah, you did. On my lap you fucker." I say
"I'm sorry Kacchan! IDidn'tMeanToI'mSoSorryI'llNeverDoItAgainPleaseForgiveMe-"
"Your mumbling." I say as I whack him on the head
I end up falling asleep halfway through another movie.
Deku POV
I feel weight in my shoulder, I turn and see Kacchan sleeping on my shoulder. I feel heat rise to my face, he looks too cute. I look away, flustered, and I can see Kacchan's friends giggling and snapping pictures.
"Hey stop that!" I say to them, "Kacchan wouldn't like it!"
"And? He's always rude to you? This would be a funny revenge, plus we can tease him for this later." Kirishima snickers
I know they have good intentions, partly, but I demand that they delete them. I get them to show me their phones, and they don't have them in recently deleted or in their photo library. I even checked hidden photos. To my dismay, Kaminari tried to hide them from me, I delete it permanently.
~Next Morning~
Bakugou POV
I sit down in my seat and I check my texts, I have one from shitty hair. I check it, and it's a picture of me sleeping on Deku's shoulder. I growl, and I turn towards shitty hair.
"THE FUCK IS THIS??" I turn my phone to shitty hair and he snickers
I see Deku peer over at my phone, I see him turn around as well. "I TOLD YOU TO DELETE THEM!"
"You didn't say anything about not sending it to him." Shitty hair says
"Ugh, you're so stupid!" Deku says, to which he gets gasps from, he's never insulted someone before.
Aizawa walks into the class,
"Hello class today we'll be doing a worksheet, you may listen to music." Aizawa says, his voice as monotone as ever.
I can hear some people go 'yes!' And 'oh yay!' throughout the classroom. I grab my phone out of my bag, and I grab my earphones. I put on one of my favourite songs as I begin working on the worksheet.
This is the song he's listening to

At about maybe 50 seconds of the song, I start singing along. When the song finishes I see a droplet of water fall onto my page. And I realise it's not water. It's tears. Everyone is looking at me with pity filled in their eyes, and I realise there's tears flowing down my face. I see Deku's face, and I can see tears brimmed in his eyes as well. I'm stuck, I want to shout at them tell them it's nothing, but no one would believe me. I feel Aizawa touch my hand,
"Bakugou are you oka-"
That touch made me jolt back into my senses, I slap his hand away. I run out the classroom, and I slam the door. Tears are still flowing out my eyes and they are going behind me. I can hear footsteps behind me. I run into the bathroom and slam the door, locking it with the key I found. I hear pounding on the door.
"GO AWAY!" I scream, my voice croaking
"Kacchan, please..." I realise it's Deku so I open the door
I can see that he's crying too. I close the door behind me, my tears still falling off my face.
I almost jump to the moon when I feel arms wrap around me, Deku buries his face into my back. I can feel him sobbing uncontrollably, and so am I.
I turn around and hug him back and we sink into the floor, still hugging, and we cry. Finally we both stop, and I look into his eyes. His eyes are staring into mine. If I'm being honest it's kind of scary.
"Show me your wrists." Deku demands
"W-What? No.." I say trembling
"I SAID SHOW ME YOUR WRISTS!" Deku yells, suddenly angry, though sadness is still in his eyes
"AND I SAID NO!" I yell back.
We stare into each other's eyes. It feels like we have swapped positions, I'm usually yelling at him and he's the sad one, it's the opposite today. I see Deku try to reach for my arm, but I jump back. I yank open the door and run. I can hear Deku shouting at me but I don't listen. I just run. I run away from Deku. Away from my problems. Away from everything. I run into the forest of U.A and I sit down by a tree to catch my breath. I can hear shouting. I can hear Aizawa calling Hound Dog to help find a missing student. I panic and I get up, I run out of the school's premise. My legs take me far away from the school. When I regain my senses, I realise I'm lost.. I've never seen the area I'm in before. Everything is new to me. I have my wallet, which contains about 20 dollars. And my phone, which is at about 67%. I don't know how long I'll be able to hide. I wander around until I've found an area I recognise. The playground I used to go to with Deku. I find the area where used to play, it's like a hollow bush. There's not many branches and twigs to blind you. And it's really thickly covered in leaves, with a tree planted in the bush. I lean against the tree planted in the bushes and I remember having so much fun with Deku here. A tear slides down my face.