I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~ Found you ~

Inko POV
I go into Izuku's room again to clean up, or I try to. I violently shake the doorknob, but it's not opening. I must have locked it when I got out. I open the dresser and I look at the spare key, it's covered in dust. I don't think I would have locked it, or else there wouldn't be any dust on it. Unless...
I grab the key in a flash, and I'm unlocking the door with a shaking hand. I open the door, and my eyes are met with a sleeping Izuku and Katsuki. My eyes brim with tears, they must have been hiding under the bed when me and Mitsuki were talking. I close the door, and I go back into my room, and I go to sleep.
Bakugou POV
I wake up, and I see Deku asleep cutely on top of me. I shake him awake, and his eyes flutter open sleepily. He rubs his eyes and looks into my eyes.
"Morning Kacchan." He says sleepily
"Morning Deku." I reply
I get up, and change into my uniform, and Deku does the same. We both are facing opposite walls while getting changed. We open the door, and we walk out of the house. Inko had already gone to work, so we were safe. We walk to school in silence, and we exit the way that only students and teachers know about. We enter in, and we sneak in without Hound Dog noticing our smell. We walk to the classroom, and by then I'm a nervous wreck. I turn around to leave and Deku looks at me with a reassuring smile. I sigh, and we step into the classroom. I walk to my seat, the eyes of everyone following me, and I sink down in my seat. Deku follows me and gives me a quick hug before going to sit down in his seat, I hug him back, earning some gasps from everyone around us. I pull on his sleeve. He smiles, and walks back over to my desk, and leans on the edge of it. We talk until class starts, with many stares and wide eyes. Aizawa walks in the class, eye bags as bad as ever, and scans the classroom as he usually does. His eyes scan around the classroom, but they immediately stop once they land on me and Deku, and his jaw drops.
"Hello Aizawa sensei!" Deku pipes up, cheery as ever
"Morning." I say, a small tone of temporary happiness in my tone
Everyone looks at me in absolute shock, I've never greeted the teacher. Let alone been semi nice about it! I roll my eyes.
I make a subtle gesture at him, to not to make a big deal out of it, and he continues on with the lesson. For once, I'm excited and keen to learn, so I'm writing more notes than ever. After class, I'm shocked to be greeted that I have more then 2 pull pages of notes and stuff. I close my notebook, and I walk over and lean on Deku's desk.
"Hello Kacchan!" Deku says happily
"Hey you." I say, running my fingers through his hair and scruffing it up
Deku laughs, flustered, and turns away trying to hide his blush. I move myself onto his desk, and sit crossed legged on it.
"Why are you looking away?" I ask, though I fully know the answer
"I-I thought I saw a— a uhm a bug- a big scary one" Deku says, with an embarrassed laugh after
"Ah, okay." I reply casually,
I can feel the intensity that our classmates are staring at us, it feels like someone's released their fire quirk on the back of my head. But, I guess I can't blame them, I would be curious and I would stare as well, I mean, two people who rivaled and hated each other, are being friendly. It's hard to believe, me and Deku being friends, but it's true. And to be honest, I don't know why I was so mean to him, he's actually really nice. And I could never bring myself to hate him the way I used to.
"Hey, can I come over today?" I ask, I want to try and make our friendship how it used to be again, except I will care so much more than what I did. And who knows, maybe it could be something more...argh who am I kidding? I've got no chance with him, the way I treated him. It's unacceptable!
"Eh? Really? Okay!" Deku replies, smiling his bright smile
I feel my face flush, and I nod. We start to talk about All Might, and other heroes. Deku's face is so bright when he's talking about something he's passionate about. At this point, yes I know I didn't mind, but's it's ticking me off now. They're eyes are on us, and I don't know if there's any other conversation in the room because they're watching and listening so intently to us.
I turn around, I really don't want to yell at them, I've tried so fucking hard so far to be nicer. And I think I'm doing an okay job, I actually feel a bit better being nice to these extras. I take a deep breathe.
"Hey, could you guys not stare? It's making me uncomfortable." I say calming, before turning around to Deku, "Sorry, continue."
Deku smiles, and continues his sentence. I can see that everyone is stunned out the corner of my eye. I sigh.
"You don't think I have a single nice bone in my fucking body?" I say them, more angry this time
"Ka-Kacchan, it's not that. It's just you're so different! A good different, but it's just quite different from your usual self." Deku says
"Yeah I know, it's just..." I say before saying quietly to Deku, "..I don't like it..I don't like them thinking of me like that..."
Deku smiles empatheticly, and with that we continue our conversation as normal. Or...as normal as it can get when you've asked people multiple times to stop staring, but they still stare.
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