I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~The Knife Returns~

Bakugou POV
I lay there in my bed, and the thoughts are back.
Ugly
Fat
Stupid
Ended All Might
Faggot
I start crying uncontrollably, but I know what to do. I grab the knife I had stolen from the dorm kitchen, and I cut. I only cut until the voices fade away, so it's only about 10 in total, five on each arm. I wrap them up in fresh bandages and I go back to sleep, the voices drowned out. I hear a knock on my door.
"Kacchan, I heard crying. Do you want me to stay the night?" Deku says, still knocking on the door
I open the door, and let him in. He just hugs me tightly, and then we go to sleep.
Deku POV
I hear sobbing from Kacchan's room, then the sobbing stops. I freeze with pain as I know what he's doing in there. When I hear the floorboards creak, I know that he's gone back to his bed. I contemplate leaving, he's doing fine now, but that would be just the worst. I knock on the door.
"Kacchan, I heard crying. Do you want me to stay the night?" I say, while still knocking on the door lightly
Kacchan opens the door, and I see his face streaked with tears, his eyes red from crying. And I can see a splotch of blood on his shirt. I don't say anything though. I just hug him tightly, avoiding his arms so I don't hurt him. When Kacchan feels sleepy we go and sleep, my body resting on top of his and his arms wrapped around me. When the sun rises, I shake Kacchan slightly.
"Kacchan, it's morning time. Time to go." I say
He groans, "Do I have to?"
"Kacchan, you don't have to. But it will help, please." I say softly
"Ugh, fine. Just because you're too cute." Kacchan says while pulling me into a hug.
We get up, and we get dressed.
"Kacchan, fix up your bandages before you put that shirt on, last light I saw a spot of blood on the sleeve." I say softly
"Oh okay, thanks." Kacchan replies kindly, I think he appreciates the fact that I'm so casual about everything
When I'm done changing, I hug Kacchan from behind. He turns around and hugs me back. We walk downstairs, and luckily there's no one around. I slip my hand into his and we walk to our destination. The weather is so nice today, there's only a couple of clouds, and the temperature isn't too hot or too cold. We walk down the sidewalks, and next to every sidewalk there are flowerbeds with buzzy bees in them. It's a beautiful day. We walk into the building and the receptionist looks up at us.
"Name?"
"Katsuki Bakugou" I say
The receptionist looks down the list, she finds Kacchan's name and says, "He will be ready for in about five minutes."
We nod and we sit down, I give him a big hug while we're waiting.
"Kacchan, you're so brave." I say, nuzzling my face against his neck
Kacchan pulls me onto his lap, and I give him a full on bear hug, my arms and legs wrapped around him. He holds me in his arms and rests his chin on my head.
"Katsuki Bakugou." The therapist calls out
I slide off of Kacchan's lap, and I give him a kiss on the cheek before he enters in for his first session.
Bakugou POV
I walk in with the therapist, and I sit on a chair.
"Tell me, what's been bothering you? You don't need to hold back, I always get asked by people around your age, if we are going to tell your parents anything. We never do, and we won't unless you grant us permission." The therapist says
"Well, lately I've been thinking that I was the reason to end All Might, because I got kidnapped and he had to come and save me. I feel like it's my fault for being so weak." I say weakly
"That's a lot to carry on your shoulders, have you told anyone about this?" He asks me
"Yes, the only person who I feel like I can express myself to is Deku- I mean Midoriya." I say
"It's okay, call him whatever you'd like." He says, smiling
"Well, I also realised that I'd fallen in love with him, he's my childhood friend. But I used to bully him for being quirkless, he confessed to me and I feel like I've never been this happy. But there's still voices in my head, to accompany the voices telling me I'm fat and ugly, there's now another voice telling me I'm a faggot. I don't know why, I'm so happy, and I don't care whatever sexuality anyone is." I say, letting it out
"Yes, so many people feel that way. It's completely normal."
I'm not a professional (duh) and I don't know much about therapy sooooooooooo:
~After the therapy~
I leave the room, feeling a lot better actually. And I feel a small pain in my stomach as Deku runs up and gives me a hug.
"Kacchan! How was it?" He asks me excitedly
"It was...actually really good!" I say, surprised
I look at the prescription that the doctor gave me for antidepressants, looks like he prescribed me Citalopram.
(I don't know anything about anti-depressants I'm sorry if it's not the right prescription or whatever, it's the only anti-depressant I know about, the video where I got that antidepressant from, it's not educational or anything, but it did give me that information, it will be at the end of this chapter)
Me and Deku go to the chemist and grab the antidepressants. We walk back to the dorm, and when we enter everyone is asking where we were. I just hold up the bag and say
"Therapy."
And then we just leave. Deku is still clung around my waist, and he's got a small smile
"Hey, Deku." I say
"Mmhmm" he replies
"I love you"
He jolts. This is the first time I had ever said the word "love" to him.
"I love you too, Kacchan." He says, smiling brighter than ever
I know it wouldn't be that romantic, but I can't hold it back anymore. I lean over and kiss him on the lips, we linger there for quite some time. It's not that romantic, given we're walking towards my dorm carrying antidepressants, and I've got bandages covering the cuts I had scarred myself with. When we part the kiss, Deku touches his lips.
"I- I don't want to ever forget what my first kiss was like, who it was with, and how I felt during, before, and after." He says, smiling his fucking adorable smile.
We intertwine our hands, and we walk back to the dorms. We flop on my bed, and and I take my Deku in hug him tight. He is my boyfriend, my friend, my lover, the closest person to me, he is my everything.
~1178 words~

Here is the video I watched, it gave me some more information on him. It also briefly (very briefly) went over antidepressants. He said those were the ones he had taken (Citolaptam) and I know no other antidepressants. Sorry if they aren't the right ones for Bakugou's case, I don't know what type of antidepressants to give. I don't know if what situation they are in makes the pills differ, so I'm sorry if anything is incorrect.