I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~Taken~

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Bakugou POV
My eyes open, and it's so dark out. I must have been out cold for a while. I'm suddenly hit with the realisation.
Deku has been taken.
I get off of the ground and I start running. I run back into the dorm room, tears blurring my vision. The snow is blocking the door partly, I shoves it away with my foot as tears threaten to spill out of my eyes. Everyone in class 1-A and even all the teachers are in the lounge, I feel blood drip down my face from where they had hit me over the head to knock me out, it had worked. The time read 1:45 AM, I was out for a long long time.
"Bakugou?! What happened?" All Might asks, rushing over as I collapse onto the floor, the tears rolling down my face like a waterfall
"FUCK OFF!" I scream
I feel myself breaking.
Everything that had been mended...
It's breaking.
Going back to square one.
"Calm down, tell us what's wrong!" Dunce face says
"DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO YOU FUCKING BITCH!" I scream
I feel nothing.
Nothing.
Empty.
No happiness.
The dark....
It's swallowing me whole...
And I can't escape.
Not for a second time.
Not without Deku.
I choke back sobs, the tears could be enough to fill out a dried out Pacific Ocean. Suddenly they all go quiet.
"Where's Midoriya?" Shitty hair questions
I crack.
I crack like a glass cup being dropped.
I weakly get off the floor, there's the anger of a thousand fiery hells burning inside of me. I walk towards him, my feet hitting the floor harder than I had anticipated, and I smack him across the face. Hard. He didn't have time to use his quirk, so I hit him very hard, leaving a red mark on his face. He looks like he's been shot, he doesn't look angry, nor hurt. It just enrages me more.
"BAKUGOU!" Aizawa screams at me angrily
"FUCK OFF! I HOPE YOU ALL BURN IN HELL!" I scream, the tears form and roll down my cheeks fat blobs
Aizawa grabs my wrist as I try to leave.
"FUCK OFF! LET GO OF ME!" I scream at him, te emptiness is hurting more than it did the first time
"Bakugou! What has gotten into you?! Where is Midoriya?!" He asks me, raising his voice
"DON'T SAY HIS NAME YOU FUCKING STUPID DELUSION BITCH! BURN IN FUCKING HELL!" I scream, flipping him off, the tears are still rolling down my face.
Everyone looks at me in shock, Aizawa wouldn't hesitate to expel me for talking to him like that. So why hasn't he?
"Bakugou, please calm down. Tell us what happened." Aizawa says calmly
"HOW CAN I FUCKING CALM DOWN?! HE'S GONE!!" I scream, my voice breaking
"Gone? What do you mean?" Aizawa asks me calmly again, it's pissing me off
"GONE? WHAT DO I MEAN?! YOU FUCKING DUMBASS! HOW MUCH CLEARER DO I HAVE TO FUCKING MAKE IT?! I SAID IT! HE'S GONE! DO I NEED TO FUCKING SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE?!" I scream as loud as my voice can handle
"Bakugou, please explain what you mean by gone? Did he move?" He asks me, he's pissing me off
I feel the anger boil inside of me, how transparent does it have to be to make it clear for him?! I feel anger take over all my common sense, I feel his grip loosen around my wrist and I slap him as hard as I can, leaving a matching red mark on his face. He looks like he's going to kill me. Yet he, strangely, remains calm.
"Bakugou, please, we can't help if you don't tell us what's wrong." He says calmly, he still looks like he's going to kill me.
I feel myself break even more, and I collapse on the ground for a second time.
"Oh god, they could be doing bad things to him now. I'm just sitting here playing fucking charades with these morons. What if he's being tortured? What if he's already dead and it's too late? Well if that would be the case I'd die with him. What if they convince him to be a villain so he can have a chance to live? What if-" I get cut off by a hand on my shoulder from All Might
"Please tell us what happened to Young Midoriya." He says, his face shows calmness
"The league of villains, they...they took him. THEY TOOK HIM! I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING! WHAT IF HE'S ALREADY DEAD? WOULD IT BE MY FAULT?! I WAS THERE! I HEARD HIM SCREAM AND I— I WASN'T ABLE TO DO ANYTHING!" I say, the tears flow down my face again
I hear Aizawa curse under his breathe, "We need to find him. Now. Before anything worse happens."
The teachers get up, and All Might looks panicked yet he still is trying to comfort me along with some of my other classmates. Suddenly everything becomes quiet, everyone's mouths are moving yet I can't hear them. Their voices are drowned out.
Weakling
You need protection
How can you be a hero like this?
How can you call yourself an aspiring hero?
You want to protect people, yet you need protection yourself.
It's your fault he was kidnapped
What if he's dead? It would be your fault
It's your fault
Everything is your fault
If you were stronger you could have prevented this
Do you here that? I think it was a gunshot killing your boyfriend
If you weren't weak you could have protected him
Useless
Deku hates you
Deku hates you for not protecting him
You should have been able to protect him, weak.
You're too fat, that's why you couldn't protect him
If you weren't as fat, you could have protected him
The voices are back, and they aren't going to stop anytime soon.
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