I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~Date~

Deku POV
I lay awake on Kacchan, his breathing lifts me up and down. I burry my face into his neck, and I wrap my arms around him.
"Hey, Deku." Kacchan says
I jolt, I had no clue he was awake. He laughs.
"You didn't know I was awake?" He asks, to which I shake my head, still buried into his neck. He continues, "Well, we've been a couple for a while, I was wondering if you wanted to go on a date or something?"
I have to bite my lip to stop myself from screaming with joy.
"I'd love to!" I say, sitting up and looking at him in his beautiful eyes.
"Wanna go now?" Kacchan asks me leaning up a bit, causing me to wobble a bit
"Really? Can we?" I question excitedly
"No we can't. Of course we fucking can, I just said we could." He says, planting a kiss on my lips.
Although we are dating, this is only our second kiss. And I don't think I'll ever get over him kissing me out of nowhere. I flush, and get up. Kacchan follows me, and gets changed as well. After we finish changing, we walk down with linked hands and we exit the 1-A dorm. We look around at the beautiful blue sky, with a couple white and grey puffs, also known as clouds. We walk until we get to a certain memorable spot. We run into the playground we used to play at when we were kids, again. We sit down on a park bench and Kacchan rests his arm on my shoulder as we talk. We eventually get onto the topic of this playground, and Kacchan seems to shut down a bit. I mean, how could I do something this heartless?! This was the place he had first physically injured me, I feel the guilt well up inside of me. I immediately change the topic to something different.
"Wanna grab something to eat?" Kacchan asks me
"Wanna go to the new cafe that just opened?" I ask him
"Sure." He says, a small smile spreads across his face
We get up, and intertwine our fingers. We walk into the cafe, and we look around. There are many cute little tables, and the chairs in the same white to match. We get taken to a table by the waitress, and we sit down at the table, we look at the menu. I end up ordering an iced coffee, and Kacchan orders a caramel frappuccino. We drink our drinks while talking about heroes, and pretty much anything. When we finish our drinks we sit there are talk for hours more. When the cafe has to make us leave as they are closing, we get up from the table and decide to head back to the dorms.
"Ehh, the weather changed a lot. It's cold now." I say as we exit the cafe and start walking back to the dorms
"Yeah, it did. Did you bring your gloves?" Kacchan says as he slips his gloves on.
"Oh yeah I did- oh! Damn! I only packed one!" I exclaim as I facepalm in shame and frustration
Despite these conditions, I still put on one of the gloves. Kacchan sees my desperate attempts to make my other hand warmer by rubbing them together, and he takes my gloveless hand and puts it in his pocket, holding my hand at the same time. We both flush as we look into each other's eyes. We walk in a comfortable silence and when we are about to open the dorms to let us in, we then realise that it's begun to snow. The pure white snowflakes drop down and land on every surface. Our hair. Our shirts. Our jackets. Our hands. And they land on our smiling faces. We walk in, snow coating us, and we both laugh as Kacchan tries to figure out where the big splotch like patch is located on his head. I end up laughing so hard, that I have to grip my stomach in pain. When I finally get a grip and stop laughing, we realise that the the entire class is in that lounge staring at us, absolutely astounded by the very site before their eyes.
"Where were you guys?!" Mina asks while rushing over, almost in tears
"Eh? What's the matter?" I ask, visibly confused
"Look at the time!" Iida says while pointing at the clock
We glance at the clock, and we are shocked to see that the time is 11:45 pm. That's why they were so shocked, we had been gone all day! We didn't even tell anyone we were going outside or something of the sort. I guess we must have worried them.
"Holy shit. That late?" Kacchan asks to no one in particular
"Well no duh! Are you guys okay? You're not injured are you?" Uraraka questions us, worried
"We're okay." Kacchan replies
"Wait- is the reason you're so late..." Denki asks, "Because you booked a night at a hotel?"
I see Kacchan's face turn the reddest I've ever seen it go, and I'm just standing there so confused.
"What do you mean by that?" I ask, genuinely confused
Half of the class bursts into a fit of uncontrollable laughter, and I'm just standing there so confused.
"Babe, what he means is he's asking us if we booked a night at the hotel to have sex." He says, louder than he intended
I feel my face flush the brightest red that a human can actually go.
"E-Eh?" I scream so embarrassed, "How could you say such a thing!"
But the class had their screaming to do.
"BABE?!" The entire class, except the four that were being little stalkers in the bush when I confessed, scream in sync.
"Well, that's our cue to leave. Let's dip." Kacchan says, grabbing my wrist and running away from the absolutely shocked class behind in the lounge.
We run until we reach the designated dorm rooms, and seperate from there. I run into my dorm, my heart beating faster than the speed of light.
Bakugou POV
I sink down my door, holy shit I called him babe in front of everyone. Now everyone knows, but being honest, I don't feel embarrassed, ashamed, scared, or even upset about what I did. I actually feel....relieved? It kinda feels weird, I feel like I should be totally embarrassed, ashamed and feel like a total idiot. But I feel good that we've told, I don't know if you would really call it telling, the class about our relationship status. I get changed, and tonight, I'm not met with the voices. The voices that make me want to slice my skin until I bleed my life away. The voices that make me want to down an entire bottle of antidepressants. There so faint, I can barely hear them.
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