I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~ Meetings ~

Bakugou POV
I open my eyes to be met with pitch black, I must have fallen asleep. I move positions to lay down on floor, and I shut my eyes to get some more sleep.
Aizawa POV
I had no idea that Bakugou felt this way, it's serious. Really serious. I call his mother, Izuku, and Inko. I know that they're all really close, except Katsuki and Izuku. Though, I know Izuku cares a lot. They walk into the office and they all have worried looks, especially Izuku.
"We can't find Katsuki..."
There is silence between us,
"What do you mean? Did something happen?" Mitsuki asks
"He ran off, he sang to a song and then ran away."
"What song?" Inko asks
I play the song, I can hear Mitsuki sob. There is silence between us, Inko is crying quietly, and Mistuki is sobbing. I look out the window and hope that he is okay.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU CAN'T FIND HIM?!"
Inko POV
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU CAN'T FIND HIM?!?" Izuku slams his hands on the table
Everyone in the room jumps, including the teacher that is always so monotone and unaffected by a lot of things. Izuku has never been like this before, I wonder what's gotten into him...
"Izuku dear, please calm down." I say, trying to get him to sit back down
Izuku slaps my hand away angrily.
"Screw this." Izuku says under his breath to no one in particular
Izuku walks out of the room and slams the door shut. Everyone in the room is looking at the door that Izuku just exited with great shock. My son has never acted this way, he must be really upset. I get up to go and get him.
"I'd prefer it if you would stay here" Izuku's teacher says to me
I nod my head, I sit back down in my chair, and we continue with the meeting.
Bakugou POV
My stomach is going to start eating itself soon, I'm starving. But I shouldn't eat, I'm too fat to eat. I don't want to eat yet, but I can't handle the hunger anymore. I get up from the bush, and brush the dirt off my uniform. I walk to the nearest convenience store, and I grab a small bag of rice crackers. I pay for it and exit the shop, walking back towards my bush. I snack on the crackers along the way, finishing them in no time. I pass a bin and chuck out the rubbish. I sink back into my bush, and I just sit there, wondering what went wrong for me to turn out like this.
Deku POV
I wander around the streets to look for Kacchan, I miss him. A lot. Part of me wants to stop looking for him, let the pro heroes look for him, put the other part is screaming at me to get up and look for him. And the second part of me, is the much louder part, so I obeyed. I walk around, and I find some spots that I remember from our childhood.
"Even though your quirkless, you're pretending to be a hero, Deku?"
I know that Kacchan doesn't know this, but I forgave him, a long time ago. I don't know why though, he's always such a jerk. Maybe it's because I wanted to be just like him, a cool quirk, and someone with a bright future to become a hero. Or it could be the fact that I'm madly in love with him, the fact that he can show kindness. I'm not sure. Whatever it is, I don't care. I find myself stood in the park where we went often when we were small. I walk towards the swing I would fall off a lot, and I sit on it and swing slightly. I sit and watch the kids run around without a care in the world, the kids who don't know how painful it is to love someone who doesn't love you back. I the sun eventually starts to set, and I decide it might have to be time for me to head off. I get up off the swing and something catches my eye. I see a familiar black shoe with red soles. I walk over to it and see a familiar spike of ash blonde hair. I hold back tears as I crawl into the bush, and I look at Kacchan. He's asleep at the moment, and again, there are two parts of me. One part wants to call the heroes and say I've found him and he's safe, but the other part wants to wait for him to be ready. I choose the second part, it's his life, and I'm not in control of it. I crawl into the bush further and I lay down next to him, I'll stay with him, I've promised myself I'll stay with him, no matter what. I eventually shut the voices, telling me to inform the heroes of Kacchan's safety, out of my brain and I drift asleep.
Bakugou POV
I wake up when the sun is rises, casting an orange hue across the playground. I get up. Or I try to. There are two arms wrapped around my body, and I look down to see a familiar head of green curls.
Did he tell the heroes I'm safe?
Did he tell people?
Did he leave it alone?
Is he going to inform people I'm safe?
All of these questions jolt into my brain as I see him slowly wake up from me violently shaking him. He sees his arms wrapped around me and jolts away quickly.
"I'm sorry, I must've done that in my sleep" Deku says before he awkwardly laughs
"Did you tell anyone....that I'm here...?" I ask
Deku shakes his head and replies, "Of course not, I'm just going to stay here with you, if that's okay?"
I nod my head, I want Deku to stay here with me. I grab him from where he is in the bush, and I pull him into an embrace. We just sit there silently hugging each other for at least thirty minutes. When I break apart the hug, I look at Deku's face, his eyes are streaked with tears.
"I'm sorry." He cries
"D-Deku? Why are you crying?" I ask, visibly confused
"I'm sorry!" He just keeps on crying
He keeps on crying, and I keep asking what's wrong, and he just keeps repeating.
"DEKU! TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG!" I scream at him
He flinches and wipes his tears off of his red face, "It's just that...I....I..." Deku stutters
"SPIT IT OUT!"
"I......." he pauses for what seems like an eternity, "I cannot forgive myself, I made you run away. I pressured you to do something you didn't want to do, and I'm sorry, you don't have to forgive me. I just..." he starts crying again
We sit in the bush, in an awkward silence, the only sound being Deku quietly sobbing and the birds tweeting.
"Deku, it's not your fault. You just—" I pause, "Wanted to see if...I was okay..."
Deku raises his head, sniffs back some more tears, and wipes his eyes. His eyes widen as I hold out my arms to him.
"Here..." I say quietly, "You can look...."
Deku silently rolls up my sleeves, and his eyes brim with tears again, as he sees the bloody bandages. He unravels them and is met with the sight of many, many, cute. Some deeper than others, some larger than others. Some newer than others, some older than others. He silently wraps them back up, and he hugs me.
"It's okay, I'm here." He says into my ear, "I won't tell."
"Thank you.." I say, hugging him back.
Their days consisted of sleeping, Midoriya forcing Bakugou to eat more. And other such things.
Aizawa POV
This isn't good. Midoriya has now disappeared, could be have gotten lost maybe looking for Bakugou? Whatever it is, he's now gone too. And we have no sign of where they went. Midoriya didn't tell anyone where he was off to, he disappeared just after we informed him that Bakugou was missing. We have to find them, but god knows what happened to them. Bakugou May have killed himself, with his state, so many things could have happened to him. We just don't know though, we have to pray that they are safe.
Deku POV
"Hey.." Kacchan says to me, "I think I might be ready to go back.."
I beam, "Really! That's amazing Kacchan!" I say as I give him a hug, recently Kacchan hasn't been denying my hugs, in fact I think he likes hugging me? It's strange! But I'm not complaining! That means, hopefully, that I'm doing a good job of being here for him! We crawl out from under the bush, and we dust off our pants and shirt. As we get up and start walking to my house, something hits me like a truck.
"Kacchan, if you're worrying. Don't be, mum isn't home yet. She would be working now." I say looking at him
He sighs in relief, "Thanks, for a Deku, you're a good one."
I feel heat rise to my face, I'm about to explode. The general smile he gave me, it was so natural, and so kind, that it feels like I've been blessed by an angel. I haven't seen Kacchan smile like this since we were small. I open the door to my house with the key I carry around, we enter and we go up in my room.
"Kacchan, I don't have any spare clothes, so I'll go pop out to the store for a minute." I say looking Kacchan in the eyes.
He nods his head, and I quickly change into some clean clothes. I wave Kacchan goodbye and I run to the shop.
Bakugou POV
"What a stupid nerd!" I think to myself as I feel heat rise to my face.
He changed no naturally in front of me, like seriously, I know we used to do that when we were younger, but...it's so different now! We're both teenagers, and I'm extremely gay! He's getting me all flustered! I let this sink in for a moment.
"The fuck?! This nerd...getting me flustered?! No way in hell!" I say aloud to myself quietly
I let out a sigh, nope, he's getting me flustered. I think.....I might have a crush on him.... I let out a frustrated sigh as I try to think of a way for me to not have a crush on him, but I definitely do. All the times I felt romantically attracted to Deku are flooding into my brain as Deku walks back in the house.
"I'm back! I'm sorry if these aren't that good! I tried my best to find clothes that you'd like!" Deku says as he enters the room.
He hands me the bag and then walks out, per my request, so I can change. I look in the bag, and my eyes brim with tears. He's so attentive to details....
I put on the long sleeved black shirt with a skull on it, and a black pair of ripped jeans. I look a myself in the mirror and, for once in a long time, I don't think I look ugly. I open the door and Deku looks at me and claps his hands.
"You look great!" He says bubbly
We hear the door open, and we hear two sets of feet walk in. Deku ushers me in the room, and we go under the bed to hide. We see two sets of feet walk in and sit on Deku's bed. One set of feet belong to the old hag, and the other set of feet belong to Auntie Inko.
"Apparently, Izuku has gone missing too. They don't know where he is, he's not in his dorm." Inko says
"I hope both of them are alright..." the hag says, while sobbing
They talk about so many sensitive things about me, and Deku..but more me. And I don't like it. Eventually they both leave and we crawl out from under the bed. Deku gets up and locks the door, and we lay down on the bed. I wrap my arms around Deku and he jolts, but then wraps his arms around me too. We end up falling asleep in each other's arms.
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