I don't deserve to live ~ Depressed Bakugou

~Rescue Mission~

Bakugou POV
I look around the bar, and every member of the League is there, perfect. The only person who is not there was the fucker that had just fled a couple minutes ago who had beaten up Deku. I grit my teeth in anger and I can feel my blood boil. By the time the pro heroes arrive I've managed to throw in a punch or two, and I haven't been able to reach Deku to take him away from their base. The pros try to get me away from the fight, saying shit like "Leave this to the pros kid." Or "Don't let your emotions take control, let us handle this." I scoff, and I don't leave. They eventually give up and let me try to rescue Deku.
Deku POV
My eyes flutter open and a familiar smell fills my nose. I can smell smoke from explosions I'm too familiar with, and I look around to see Kacchan trying to reach me, along with a pro hero. I try to call out to them but my voice won't work and I just make a small groan. Kacchan hears and his head darts towards my direction. Before I know it, I'm out cold for the second time.
Bakugou POV
I hear a small, squeaky groan from Deku's direction and I quickly look over to Deku. I see his emerald green eyes staring into mine, but before I could blink twice he was out cold again. The hero draws the attention of the villains away from me so I can rescue him. I run towards him at full speed, and scoop him up in my arms. I use my explosions to launch myself out of the massive hole in the ceiling and I see some heroes, Recovery Girl in the group, gesture for me to come over there. I go over there and I rest Deku down and Recovery Girl examines him briefly.
"He's got a lot of injuries, we'll have a closer look once we get to the hospital." She quickly comments
An ambulance arrives and I get permission to ride to the hospital in there, per Deku's croaky request. Then he was out cold again. I grip his hand and we ride over to the hospital. I feel unwanted tears force their way out of my eyes and they land on my hand, along with Deku's. I feel a grip on my hand and I see Deku's eyes open for the fourth time.
"I-'m he-ere Kacc-h-han." He says croakily while looking into my eyes brimmed with tears
Before I know it, again, he's out. When we arrive at the hospital all of our classmates are there, worried as anything. They all ask me questions, but they bounce right off of me. All I'm thinking about is Deku's condition.
"I hope he's okay..." I murmur to myself
I feel a couple of arms wrap around me, and Shitty hair is clung to me along with ahem;
Raccoon eyes
Glasses
Frog bitch
Sparkling bitch
Round face
Tail man
Dunce face

Pretty much everyone from class 1-a...
I feel my heart break.
It breaks like a pristine glass cup being dropped onto a hardwood floor.
I start having a breakdown and everyone tries their best to comfort me. I excuse myself to the bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and, I'm tempted to cut yet I don't have a blade, so I just splash some water on my face. I exit the bathroom and Mr Aizawa is standing there.
"I get that everyone is worried for Midoriya, but we should all be heading back. We can visit tomorrow." He says calmly
I make a very quiet whimper which, gratefully, no one hears. We all head back to the dorms and I collapse onto the bed, too tired to cut. Even though the voices are loud, I don't cut because I'm so tired.
Deku doesn't wake up today.
He doesn't wake up tomorrow.
Nor the day after.
And not the day after that.
Deku doesn't wake up for weeks, and it makes me sick to my stomach. I'm sitting in English class when I feel panic arise in me, what if he's never going to wake up? What if he dies? Tears roll down my face in big blobs. Present mic walks over and puts a hand on my shuddering shoulder, I'm sobbing so uncontrollable it's so hard to breathe. Present mic gets permission from Nezu so I can visit Deku, since I'm so upset that he's not waking up and scared that he would die. The hag takes me to the hospital Deku is staying at, and the doctors and nurses assure me that he is in a stable condition. But to me, he looks so frail and weak. So tired, and he almost looks like he's already dead, but he's heart monitor says otherwise. Even though he's alive, I can't bear to see him like this. I exit the hospital room and go into the bathroom. I walk into a stall, this time equipped with the tools necessary to drown the voices out.
Deku POV
I can feel everything around me, I can feel the wires hooked up into my arms pumping blood and the necessities to survive into me. I feel feel the hospital bed under my body, I feel my head resting on top of the pillow. I can feel all these things, yet I can't do anything about it. It feels like I'm being suffocated, and I can't move a muscle. I hate it, I hate this feeling. I can hear everything everyone is saying, and I can tell I'm probably passed out, and I want to wake up. Now.
I feel an urge to move, to get up scream and shout. With all my might, I try to move my fingers, my toes, my arm, anything. I get my fingertip to lift up a little, and I feel my eyes open a small bit, and I feel myself able to move again. As I'm opening my eyes a little, I see a spiky, ash blonde, haired boy leave the room. I jolt up, unhooking a tube attached to my arm. Mitsuki's eyes widen along with her arms as she pulls me into a tight embrace. She cries and I cry, and then I realise something.
Kacchan took his bag with him to the bathroom...
I jolt away from our hug.
"I need to go to the bathroom." I say frantically
"Okay, honey. I'll inform the nurse that you've woken up." She replies kindly
I jump out of the bed and rush out of the room into the bathroom. I hear my feet patting against the tiled floors as I rush into the bathroom. I see a familiar spikes haired boy washing his bleeding arms under the faucet. The cuts on his arms represent each horrible thought he has. I feel fat fears roll down my face as I look at the sight before me.
Bakugou POV
I glance to the door that is suddenly opened, and my entire body freezes and the cold water runs down my bleeding arms, which are decorated alike a Christmas tree with cuts. Deku is standing in the doorway, and he has a frantic look on his face. When he takes in the sigh in front of his eyes, big fat tears roll down his face. And we both just stand there for a minute, not knowing what to say or do. Eventually Deku runs towards me and hugs me so tight I feel like I will pass out. Deku realises this, and let's go of me. He takes another look at my arms and sighs.
"Honestly Kacchan, I was going to wake up eventually." He says, before looking into my eyes which display my thoughts like they're words written on pencil and paper.
He gets up and pulls me into my feet, he snatches my bag away from me and gets out the bandages and wraps up my bleeding arms. He find all the blades hidden in my backpack, even the extra ones I had sewn into the back of my bag. He chucks them into the trash when we're walking out. My arms feel sore, but my mind is clear so it doesn't matter how sore or sick and tired my body is from cutting, so as long as my mind is clear then I'm okay. We walk into the hospital room and the doctor gives him a quick check up before dismissing him with perfect results. The hag is driving us back to the dormitories and I can't hold it in anymore. I grab Deku's face and I kiss him, at first his body is shocked and tense but he eventually melts into the kiss. I pin him down on the back seat as I kiss him. When we break apart, gasping for air, the old hag chuckles.
"Save that for the bedroom, will you?"
We flush and we sit back up and Deku rests his head on my lap. When we get to our destination the old hag claps loudly, jolting us from our sleep.
"Boys, get up. We're back!" She says, way to cheery
Deku looks really tired as we exit the car, so I lift him on my back and I carry him into the dorms. We see a shocked Kaminari eating Mac and Cheese and Sero eating cereal, also shocked, in the dorm lounge. Deku waves sleepily and then rests his head on my shoulder again. The hag waves to the two boys.
"Don't tell anyone anything, we want to surprise everyone!" The hag yell whispers excitedly
The two boys nod happily and I walk up to my room, Deku's is a bit further and I'm also tired so we flop down onto my bed and sleep.
~1650 words~

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