Lost in Blue

chapter ten

"Please no wake up Cedric"

I see Cedrics lifeless body in front of me. He won't wake up. As much as I shake him he won't.

"Please wake up"

I sit up in my bed screaming.

"Shhh Stella, it's okay" my father cooes as he holds me.

I eventually must've fell back asleep because I wake up to the sun shining through my bedroom blinds.

It's been four months since Cedrics death. Four. Long months.

The night after Cedric died I wouldn't talk or look at anyone. Just at the burning fire in front of me. Not Grace, not Lewis, not Ron or Harry. Not even Draco.

They tried to keep me at school for a few days. Hoping I'd one day snap out of it, but I never did. It got so bad that Dumbledore had to end my term early and personally bring me home.

I was able to snap out of being in shock a few days after I got home. My mom was and dad were both heart broken to see me staring down at the fire place. For some reason the fire place was the only thing I wanted to look at.

I've been trying to get back to my normal self. Grace has visits me at least three days a week. Pansy and Millicent has stopped by a few times. Lewis and Todd have came by. Even Hermione, Ron and Neville have came by.

I didn't love Cedric, I can't lie. I didn't. But I really cared for him. He was an amazing, supportive and caring friend. We never got the chance to make things official because we were so caught up in everything else. I regret that. I regret not taking the chance I had because now I'll never have it.

As every day went by it got a bit easier. It's been four months and I'm back to eating, back to laughing with out feeling to guilty and the nightmares have went from every night to now every few weeks.

As hard as it was, I needed to grieve properly and not let this be the thing that destroys me. I can't imagine what it was like for Harry who saw it with his own eyes. Which as bad as it sounds, I used that as the way to cope. The fact I didn't have to see him be murdered.

I finally roll out of bed and walk down to the kitchen

"Good morning mum" I yawn.

"Good morning darling" she says kissing my head and placing some fruit and toast down in front of me.

"I thought since school is next week we would go out and do some shopping" she suggests

"Yeah that sounds fun" I nod going up to take a shower and get ready for the day.

I was ready to go back to school. I needed to go back. I needed that distraction. I hated being cooped up in my thoughts all the time. It made things worse.

My mother and I spend the day shopping. I get some new shirts and skirt for school. I get my year five books and some other things I needed.

We walk into a small pub on the street of Diagon Alley.

"I'll be right back, go get us a seat" she says.

I walk and find a small booth and take a seat in it

The bell of the door goes off and I see a face I haven't seen in months.

Draco.

He walks in with his mum. They take a seat not to far from our table.

"What are you gonna eat" my mum says snapping me back into reality as she sits in front of me.

We enjoy our lunch. I had a chicken wrap and fries. Absolutely delicious it was.

We get up to walk out of the pub when I hear a soft voice.

"Stella?"

"Hi Draco" I turn around to him.

"How have you uh been?" He asks looking down.

"I've been good actually" I say truthfully

"Good. So I'll see you next week at school then?"

I nod at the boy before turning and following my mum out the door and down the alley.

Something tells me that this year, Im gonna be okay.