Lost in Blue

chapter twenty four

Dracos POV

"What the hell mate" Lewis shouts, storming in the room.

I lay on my bed, looking up and stare at my celling.

"Why are you being like this to Stella" he snaps at me, "you push her away as soon as you guys finally start to get along. If you keep doing this your gonna end up alone and I'm not letting you live with me and my future wife"

I sigh at him, no one understands that what I'm doing is putting everyone who looks at me in danger. I don't want to push Stella away, I want to hug her and kiss her soft lips, listen to her laugh or watch her and my mom gossip at the dinner table. But I can't.

"Lewis mate, you don't get it. I don't want to push her away, she is the best thing I've had. But I can't let her get hurt or caught up in anything" I stress.

"Well what the fuck are you up to that you can't tell me or Stella" he urges. I can tell he's frustrated with me.

" I can't tell you" I mutter, him sighing at me.

" I wish I could but I can't, I have to be alone in this can't you understand that. For once I really cannot let anyone in" I tell him, my voice louder then I wanted it to be.

"Is it for your father? What are you doing that is this bad Draco, I don't want you getting in trouble" he reasons.

"It's not for my father" I sneer, " I have to do soemthing or else I'm gonna be the one in a grave"

I see the colour leave Lewis face.

"Wha-what do you mean?"he mumbles. I can see the way his eyes narrow that he has a pretty good idea of what I'm talking about, "You aren't.. you didn't. No?"

I know I'm going to regret this, I'm not telling Lewis about my task but I trust him. I need to tell someone. If anyone it's gonna be him, he would find out sooner then later anyways.

I take a breath and roll up my sleeve. His eyes go wide as he sees the dark mark, largely inked on my forearm. I quickly roll my sleeve back down.

"You're.. you're a death Easter now?" He says in shock.

"It wasn't my choice, I had to or he would of killed me. This is why I didn't want to tell anyone because I don't want anyone getting dragged into this" I gulped, feeling a little bit of the stress that was sitting on my chest leave.

"So that's why you told her to leave, because you didn't want her to find out.." he mumbles, taking in everything.

"I didn't want anyone to find out. I'm ashamed of it. I only am telling you because I trust you enough to not tell anyone and I know you'd figure it out sooner or later" I frown.

"Well I'm glad you told me, I'm not letting you do anything alone" he scolds.

"I can't let you help me for what I have to do. I just need to know you understand why I pushed her away. You would do the same if it was Grace"

Lewis sighs softly, " I get it. Id do the same to protect her"

"Please don't tell anyone and please don't put yourself into any position where anyone can get suspicious you know. I can't have you getting hurt either" I plead

"I won't tell anyone Mate. I get why you didn't want to tell me, but I'm glad you did... what are you gonna to about Stella?"

"I.. I don't know. I don't want her to hate me, I need her. But I also don't want to let her in because I know she'll try and help me which will just end up getting her killed. If something happens to her mate..." I hear my voice crack " I can't let anything happen"

"Will figure something out alright, Stella is the most forgiving person I know, and I know how much she cares for you. Will figure it out" he assures.

I feel better now that someone knows my secret. I don't want to let him into much though, if he finds out I have to kill Dumbledore he will despise me. I wouldn't blame him either.