Quinn Carter is a sophomore at Northwright high , she's shy and can be a little awkward.
Then there's Lee Smith , her heart stopping ,jaw dropping ,mouth watering Korean love interest who she has been infatuated with since the day she met him . Pro...
"Hello ?" I throw my bag on the ground," anyone home?"
"Mom." Silence .
" Felipe, Isabella?" Still no one .
I walk to the kitchen and open the fridge , I'm not surprised no one's home .I wish I were . Most times are like this nowadays , Felipe and Isabella are usually out at a club or a friends party , mom knows since they stopped bothering to lie to a woman who could not care less about where they were , she couldn't take care of herself at all nowadays . I scan the room not really looking for anything , as I sip my bottle of water . I keep my eyes fixed on the kitchen counter , it's clean white marble , the stools well arranged .It wasn't always that way ,it used to be so messy and the stools were scattered all over the kitchen . I can vividly remember the many Saturday mornings and rainy days we spent here. Baking cookies and bread... well more like watching our dad make perfect cookies and bread while we burnt ours . He used to say we would be hopeless wives and husband and that we took after our mother , he tried so hard to teach us how to bake but we always messed up ,if they weren't burnt they were too sweet or salty or doughy at the center . He'd eat them with us just to make us happy and we'd end up with a stomach ache that lasted days.
Mom would complain for hours on end about our irresponsible behaviour . She couldn't stay mad for long , especially not at dad . And the cycle continued . Felipe Isabella and I decided to do our best to make a nice cake for our dad , we did make a pretty decent cake .
He didn't get to eat it .
This one time it rained and the lights went out .we got bored so Isabella and I decided to go play out in the rain , he knew we'd catch a cold but he joined us and we played in the rain till it stopped . The next day we had a cold , all of us . We became roommates in the guest house for a week and played Roblox , Felipe got really jealous . The best part of it all is he had a business meeting but he stuck with us . But then the memories fade .
"Hey ?" She ignores me and just heads up to her bedroom , nothing new.
"Hey what's up with her ?"
"How would I know ."
"Really , Felipe ?"
"What?" He asks glaring at me .
"Where have you guys been ."
"Look I don't have time for your shit alright . Besides me and her split up after the party."
He walks past me leaving behind the smell of alcohol and cigars .
"Are you drinking again ?"
"Back off ."
"No Felipe ,I'm worried about you ."I take a cautious step close to him.
"Look I'm fine, you need to worry about yourself ."
"I'm fine I'm not the one doing drugs and drinking ."
"Hey watch it ." He grabs my arm and I almost loose my footing . His hand is cold , I feel the hair on my skin stand , I'm scared but he can't know that . My eyes are burning , tears are threatening to well up what the hell has he become ? How did we get here ? He looks so broken like he needs a hug , someone to tell him he's loved . But that person isn't me , I can't help either one of them .
"Just keep your distance ." He slowly let's go of my hand and walks away like nothing happened . I slowly walk up the stairs to my bedroom , I'm completely done with this family . I feel weak , my knee wants to give out . Why couldn't we be normal?
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Ding.
I roll over to grab my phone from the bedside table .
Quinn: hey , how was practice ?
: Lee talk about me ?
Alex: hey .no he didn't , we didn't even practice.
Quinn: oh , well did you mention me ?
Alex: no . Look can we talk about something else .
Quinn: sure what about ?
Alex: well I had another shitty day at home.
Read.
She's just left me on read . I stare at my phone for what seems like hours .Still no reply .
I put my phone down and wait , still nothing . She probably had to do something important , she wouldn't leave me hanging like that .
I stare out at the dark night , the moon is shinning so brightly . completely unreflecting of my feelings . The world does continue to move despite how you feel , I learnt that the hard way . I curl up on my bed and hold my knees to my chest . I'm completely unaware that I keep rubbing my left knee , I don't know why . It's healed up now , it no longer hurts but it seems to come back up when certain memories resurface .
My eyes shift to the floor , at the corner used to be a big black teddy bear .I loved snuggles. The name sounded to cheesy to me , but I stuck with it because Juan said it would give me all the snuggles he couldn't whenever he was away .
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