Quinn Carter is a sophomore at Northwright high , she's shy and can be a little awkward.
Then there's Lee Smith , her heart stopping ,jaw dropping ,mouth watering Korean love interest who she has been infatuated with since the day she met him . Pro...
I can't wait to get home and just sleep until tomorrow . I'm absolutely done with this world's bullshit . The weather reflects exactly how I feel right now, dark-grey clouds covering the whole sky , the thunder and lightning , it looks like it's about to be s heavy downpour .
I should have known I couldn't count on anyone but myself , but instead I foolishly went ahead and trusted Quinn when she said she'd be here when I needed her . I gave away my invulnerability , now I feel like a weakling who can't handle her shit . You know , there was a time when I used to remind myself that caring for others especially my family is important but to be honest I haven't the slightest bit of guilt for absolutely hating them now .
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I turn the key to the front door and head straight to my room . No one's home because why would they be ? Everyone's busy wallowing in pain over the fact that our selfish father wasn't man enough to take care of us , he just up and left . I'm slowly starting to learn to deal with the fact that he is never coming back and he has a way better life now apparently with some bimbo named Grace . I always prided myself in being his little girl , his favourite daughter but after seeing what he left my mom for , I'm okay with being just Alex , I don't even want the surname anymore .
I feel completely detached from this family , only person left now is my grandmother who I spent most of the holiday with . She's cool , probably more than any grandma should be , I can't understand why my mom can't be like her mom.
When dad left she's been completely broken ever since and that got worse once she saw Grace his prized trophy wife who uses like before every sentence and looks like her main hobby is traveling and yoga.
My siblings are completely hopeless at this point . All I'm hoping for is to not get a call at three in the morning to go identify dead bodies .Sucks that this is what I think of when I think of them but hey , can you blame me ?
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"No , I ...I said no I'm not letting you take her away from me ." I hear a distant voice say .
It's coming from the living room , sounds like people arguing . I take out my earphones and reluctantly leave behind my epic fail videos to go see what's going on .
I walk as stealthy as I can so I don't get caught .it's my mom and ...my dad or more appropriately , () I sit quietly on the top stair and listen in .
"Well I'm not giving up !" He yells frustratedly running his hand through his jet black curly hair
"She's my daughter , I'm not letting you have her !" Mom replies her voice wavering She looks like she's about to cry . Who are they talking about ?
"She's my daughter to you know ." He retorts .
"No Alex is not going anywhere , you understand me !" Mom yells seeming desperate, almost like she knows she won't win the argument . Of course she wouldn't , she's become unstable and completely incapable of taking care of anyone .
"She is coming with me ! " My dad yells and raises a hand at her with the intention of hitting her .
"Papa parar!" I yell running down the flight of stairs at such a high velocity it seemed like I flew over them .
"¿Cómo te atreves a intentar levantarle un dedo? Ella es tu esposa ... o solía serlo. ¿Es por eso que eh? ¿Crees que puedes golpearla ahora que ya no es tu esposa? ¿¡Eh !?" I ask the shocked man standing before me , looking at him now , the kind of person he's become , I can quite physically feel the love and respect I have for him drain away.It hurts like a son of a bitch .
" Lexy, Es ... no es así. Yo ... me dejé llevar por mi enojo, lo siento, nunca lastimaría a tu madre ".He makes a pathetic attempt at apologizing .
I can't believe him , I can see right through his bullshit !
"También prometiste que no la dejarías, pero mira cómo resultó ". He lowers his head in embarrassment, and rightfully so . He should be more than ashamed .
The week before I overheard my mom on the phone with him at one in the morning while I was ...it doesn't matter what I was doing , he was scolding her again . This has been going on for too long and I'm sick and tired of him , of both of them .
"No voy a ir a ningún lado contigo." I argue in a tone that shows I'm clearly trying my best to not loose my shit .It's shaky and my throat feels sore , my eyes sting and threaten a downpour . My fists are balled up and shaking furiously . I try to stay calm but I can't help shake and twitch , I'm not gonna let myself cry that's pathetic .
"But Left , my Niñita -"
"Oh cut the crap , I'm not your anything ! " I say firmly grabbing the edges of my oversized t-shirt desperate to find a way to calm the storm stirring up in me . That name ... held so much importance to me , now all I feel is shattering pain when I hear it .
"Alex calm down keep it together n ." Mom tries to intervene .
"No ...no you know your one to talk , keep ...keep it together you can't even keep your shit together to save your own life if not for your children ." I protest .
"Mom , are...are you kidding me ! You've let my siblings go to shit all because some pathetic man left you ! " I yell and wince a little at my own harsh words .
"Alex please ." She begs tears welling in her eyes .
" No ,no, no Alex please! You know the reason I went on that trip and stayed with Grandma instead of coming home is because of you ... because of this ...this ...this bullshit !" I say wiping a rebellious tear , like I said crying is pathetic .
"Please just calm down ."
"No I will not calm down dad !" I air quote the word .
"You left and without reason , you left wondering what she did wrong . You broke her only to come back with some ... " Slut "huh ..." I sigh and bite down hard on my lip to keep from saying it for some reason . I guess I have morals .
"So to answer your question , no I am not going with you and I wouldn't dream of it ." I turn and face my mother who is now wiping her tears with no success , She could cry me a River for all I care .
"And you , the only reason I'm staying with you is because I still have to be in stupid school otherwise ...I would be on the other side of the world ."
"You and me are probably as done as I am with him ," I regret to the man behind me " but Isabella and Felipe , they need you to pick yourself up and be a goddamn mother to them ! They are lost and are taking the insignificant loss the same way you are ...by wallowing in self pity ! Is you can't then band them over to him ," I turn to face him " He should fix what he broke ."
I finish and before any of them can process what just happened , I walk of to my room .
"Broken huh ?" Isabella asks folding her arms .Felipe is standing behind her holding the same expression . I'm too exhausted to deal with anymore of this , " Take a look in the mirror ...you'll get it ." I sneer and push past them .
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