The Mafia's Baby (Completed)

14

Warning: Sensitive Topic!

Chapter 14

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My parents were together for a year because of an arranged marriage.  When I was born, Mom immediately left me by Dad's side and didn't show up. I was five years old when there was trouble in the underground society where my Dad was pointed out to be involved. Clint and I were in danger.

My brother and I were sent far away, he was sent to her grandmother's side and I to my mom's residence in London.

Noong una masaya ako dahil makakasama ko na siya. She treated me so kind at first, pero habang tumatagal napansin ko may kakaiba kay Mom. Palagi siyang sumisigaw at umiiyak. Later on the butler told me she was diagnosed with severe postpartum depression after she gave birth to me. Gusto ko tulungan si mommy... Pero sabi nila wala daw akong magagawa.

I'm worried sick when dad never pay visit or call me. Is he okay?

Habang tumatagal, sinasaktan na ako ni mommy kapag nakikita niya ako. She's always blaming for her miserable life. She always said she could be with the love of her life... If I wasn't born.

Ako ang salot sa buhay niya. Hanggang sa dumating sa point na lumala ang depression niya at naging servere abusive mental illness na. I was six years old ng ikulong niya ako sa hawla sa kadihalanan na lumabas ako ng mansion. Everytime mag-aaway sila ng karelasyon niya. Ako ang pinagbubuntungan niya ng galit. Tiniis ko dahil mommy ko siya. Gusto ko gumaan ang loob niya. Hanggang sa hindi ko akalain na mas lalala pa pala ang lahat. Ang noong palo at kurot lang ay di kalaunan naging saksak at hampas ng latigo na.

Let me die.

As a little kid that was my only wish. Kapag naghihingalo na ako at nag-aagaw buhay, magpapapunta siya ng doctor para gamutin ako. Pagkatapos ko gumaling, balik ulit siya sa pananakit sakin.

You're a useless kid.

You don't deserve to live.

I regret giving birth to you.

You will be miserable as I do.

Those words leave a big mark inside my chest. My own mother loathed me for my existence. Why do I have to experience this? Seven years old ako ng makalaya ako sa impyerno na iyon. Walang magawa si Mom dahil si Dad mismo ang sumundo sakin. My dad once love that monster, kaya hindi niya ito binugbog o di kaya pinatay ang babaeng iyon.

Two years without the sunlight feels strange to me. It was raining dry leaves the moment I got outside.

It's autumn season.

Habang paalis ang kotse namin hindi ako nag-abalang lumingon sa mansion na iyon.

I was in highschool when I met Olivia. She's the kindest and pretties in our school. She also came from a wealthy family. I was a shy boy during that time. She confessed to me... Who would reject a perfect girl like her? We dated for five months. We kiss... And she was my first. I accepted her even though she isn't virgin anymore binigay ko lahat sa kanya. Expensive gifts and I even gave her some land titles. I'm head over heels in love with her... Pero nang pumunta ako sa vacation house na binigay ko sa kanya, nakita ko siya may ka-sex na iba. I fcking cried in front of her and begging to answer my questions. I love her kahit may iba siya kaya ko magpatawad. Pero mas pinili niya ang lalaking iyon kesa sakin. Because of anger crawling in my skin pinapatay ko ang kabit niya. Ginamit ko ang impluwensya ko para pabagsakin ang kompanya ng pamilya niya. I somehow got my revenge pero 'yung huling salita niya ay bumaon sa dibdib ko.