Not my Husband

Is it still called dating if he's married?

"Tell me you love me again" I say to Lucas as I trace the tattoo on his chest with my fingertip

"I love you Yara," He says tightening his hold around me and I get a tingling sensation throughout my whole body

"So what, am I to be your concubine now?" I ask Lucas teasingly "Your mistress?" I add. Even though I'm teasing, a part of me is actually serious.

"Concubine?" Lucas asks as his body vibrates under me in laughter "No Yara you're much more than that" He adds as his laughter dies down

"This is so wrong" I groan, but I know that I'm not going to do anything about it. I'm happy, is it wrong for me to want to put my happiness above others?

"But it feels so right," Lucas says sliding his hand down from my waist to my butt cheek and squeezing

"But seriously Lucas, are we just supposed to sneak around and have sex?" I ask him looking up at him and he sighs, obviously this isn't something he wants to talk about right now, but I need to know what's happening here and if it's worth the guilt.

"Yara I don't know what this is, all I know is that I'm in love with you and that I want to be with you," He says softly making my whole body go weak.

"Okay" I respond, even though I'm extremely happy right now, I'm not completely satisfied with his answer. I mean what are we doing? Are we dating? Is it still called dating if he is married?

"When was the last time you had something to eat?" Lucas asks me changing the subject

"I had a mango smoothie in the afternoon during my lunch break," I tell him

"That's not food Yara, and what is it with you and mangos?" He asks

"I just like mango-flavored stuff" I say shrugging

"I'm going to order us something to eat, what would you like?" He asks

"Can we have waffles and ice cream?" I ask him "I have everything we need downstairs," I tell him eagerly

"That's not food Yara," Lucas says with a boyish grin

"Yeah it is, if you can put it in your mouth and swallow it then it's food" I say back

"I could say the same thing about my cu-"

"Don't you finish that sentence" I interrupt him my eyes widening and he bursts out laughing

"You're a very dirty man," I say slapping his chest lightly which only makes him laugh even harder

"You love it really" He says still laughing and I just roll my eyes getting out of the bed wrapping a sheet around my body

"Where are you going?" Lucas asks with a pout. Damn he is so adorable.

"I'm going to take a shower" I tell him

"Alright, I'll take care of dinner" He says to me with a smile and I walk into the bathroom to take a cold shower.

I'm weak, I know that. At the beginning of this week I told myself that I would stay away from Lucas, but he loves me and I might be in love with him as well. Sure he's marriage is a bit of an inconvenience, but he says it's pretty much over between him and Riley.

Oh my gosh, I can't believe that I just referred to his marriage as an inconvenience. What is wrong with me? I wish I had met him way before he met Riley, maybe things might have been different. But would he even have noticed me back them, when he was some hot shot Formula 1 driver?

Instead of taking a quick 5 minute shower I end of spending 45 minutes in there distracted by my thoughts. I'm only brought back to reality by Lucas when he knocks on the door.