WOMAN - H.S

15.

*WARNING ⚠️ TW ⚠️ PANIC ATTACK & NIGHTMARE *

Hi! Welcome back, brace yourself for a long dramatic chapter! There's is a TW in here if you can't read it skip to the next chapter!

Enjoy!!

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4 day's later*

I didn't sleep last night. My body was exhausted but my mind was roaming. I knew if I fell asleep I would wake up screaming. I couldn't do it. I knew today was going to be one of those day's where I wouldn't be able to see the color in my life...and there was nothing I could do about it.

I forced myself out of bed and went into the bathroom. I didn't even bother looking at myself in the mirror. When I washed my face, I kept my eyes shut. I went out to the kitchen to get some coffee when I saw a note on the counter from Olive.

Hey girlie,

I went to Jay's for a while.

Don't know if I will be back tonight or not.

I will text you. I hope you have a good day!

Text me if you need anything! :)

Xoxo, Olive

How did I not hear her leave? I sighed grabbing my coffee and went back to my room. I pulled the hood of my hoodie down, going over to check my phone.

1 notification from: Harry:)

Good morning, Angel

It read.

Staring at the text with my fingers lingering over the key board, I turned off my phone not responding I couldn't do it. I felt the tears burning my eyes before they fell. My back hit the wall sliding down it, before I was sobbing. I couldn't control this feeling. I couldn't control my thoughts, I couldn't control me. And I hated it... So much.

Dancing wasn't going to calm this feeling. It's too much. "Why?" I asked myself thinking I would know the answer...I don't. I stood up from the ground going over to my bed getting back in it.

My head hit the pillow as I stared at the ceiling letting the tears fall. I laid there for a good 45 minutes before getting tired from crying. All my energy was gone. My eyes kept getting heavier and heavier, before I fell into a deep sleep.

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"NO! YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME" I screamed. "STOP!" I screamed again. I snapped my eyes open sobbing. I couldn't breathe. I was choking on my own sobs.

I did the only thing I knew how to do.

The phone rang 3 times before it picked up the voice on the other end. "I need you" I cried.

They hung up.

I tried standing I needed air, but I fell. I don't have balance. I sobbed even harder not knowing what was wrong with me. My nightmare felt so real. I tried putting pressure on my wrist and deep breathe, to calm me down. It wasn't working. I was starting to get frustrated.

"What's wrong with me?" I yelled at myself.

"ANNA?" I heard my name. I couldn't respond just cry I felt embarrassed I couldn't control my self. "Anna!" I heard Olive run to my side. "you're okay" she told me. "No, I'm not I'm not okay" I spoke in between sob's. "Jay can you get some water?" He asked. He nodded. "What's fucking wrong with me?" I asked her. "Nothing Anna, nothing is wrong with you. It's not your fault" she spoke.

"I'm sorry, i'm so, so, so, sorry" I sobbed. "You have nothing to be sorry for" Olive spoke.  I put my head in my hands feeling helpless, before I felt someone bend down in front of me. It was probably Jay with my water. I opened my eyes looking in front of me... the shoes. My breath hitched in my throat before my head snapped up... It was Harry.