Overpass || 승진

#040

It felt like forever till he had the courage to actually open it.

The room was dark with only glints of sunlight that was peaking through the little gaps of the curtains. He was sitting on his bed, yellow blanket wrapped around his small frame.

Beige notebook rested on his lap.

The boy let out a long, sad sigh, his eyes fixed on the item.

He used all of his power to lift it, holding it carefully as if it would turn into ashes with the wrong touch.

He opened it finally.

Dear Felix, if you are reading this that means I'm gone. Please read further and don't cry.

That was on the top of the first page.

A bitter smiled formed on his chapped lips.

"Huh... asking for the impossible I see."

Firstly, I want to apologize for being an absolute horrible and selfish best friend, hence I don't even know if I deserve to be called even as your acquaintance.

Felix, I'm so fucking sorry.

I don't know what happened to me after the graduation. I lost my will to study, to work, to talk, to breathe and to be a normal functioning human person. I ignored you until I needed something, didn't even question how your school life is.

What kind of friend was I?

As I'm writing this, embarrassment flows through my veins. All I knew about you was your crush and that you want to become a writer.

That's it.

I didn't ask about your family, if you'd made new friends, or just simply about your feelings. I'm terrible and I know it, this makes me so fucking mad that I just realized this, near my death.

The guilt eats me alive, Felix.

I'm the epitome of arrogance and human trash. I'm not surprised that Seungmin wanted to kill me in the first place.

"...I've always hated when you talked so lowly about yourself but thank you for being honest."

He turned the page.

So now, let me tell you about how I met the real wolf in sheep's clothing, the boy who stole my heart.

Even a fool knows that our story won't end with perfect smiles and careless yells of 'I love you's.

"Since when were you so poetic?" He asked, chuckling whole-heartedly, liking that particular sentence.

Let's begin, shall we?

"We shall I guess."

Our first meeting wasn't even planned. I went out after midnight to buy some food, because you know how lazy I am. I was eating gummybears in the park when someone interrupted my peaceful being. A cute boy stood under the streetlight, watching me with a tasteless glare.