Sister to Jonas

Apology

Joe's POV

This apology has to be perfect, or I'm never going to get my sister back. She's already pissed off at me enough, so if I make it worse, there's no going back to the way things used to be.

"I'm sorry for running off, just deciding that I was going to move out. I shouldn't have done that: it was childish as hell. I know you were just trying to help, but springing Nick on me so suddenly after I'd just told you I didn't want to see him hurt. I was angry, and sad, and though it was the situation with the Brothers I was mad about, I took it out on you because inviting him here made the breakup feel so much more real. So I ran off. I panicked," I say, looking at her expectantly.

"But I ran after you! I tried to get you to come back! And you didn't even look in my direction!" she snaps.

"I know. I wanted to come back right away after I drove off, but I thought if I came back pissed off all I would do is snap on you again. It took me a few weeks to get over my anger to the point where I thought I could talk to you, but by that point I figured you hated my guts, so I kind of just let the situation alone. I missed you so much though. I just wanted to talk things through with you, but I'd convinced myself I couldn't."

"But how do you think I felt? You just left! And you wouldn't get in contact with me but you thought it would be fine to post on your Instagram! How do you think that affected me? I cried for days, Joe!" Brexley says, voice cracking a little at the end, and my heart breaks. How could I have allowed that to happen, especially with the person I was closest to? I'm a horrible brother.

"I had no idea. I'm sorry. For all of it. For getting mad, running off, not answering your texts, not trying to talk to you more than once. I'm sorry it took me two years to try and get our relationship back," I tell her, tears burning in my eyes as I talk. I never could have imagined how bad this situation was for her; I thought I had it worse. But I didn't, far from it actually.

"I'm still really pissed at you, Joe," she says flatly, and the tears slip out of my eyes. This isn't going to work. It's been too long, and she can't forgive me.

"I'm sorry. I really, truly am. I never wanted to ruin things forever," I say, and I'm bawling like a baby now. I literally can't control my emotion.

"I-I know," Brexley hesitates. She's silent for a moment, as if considering something, and then throws her arms around me, catching me very off guard. "I'm sorry too. If I didn't force Nick on you before you were ready to talk to him, none of this would have ever happened."

"But I'm the one who-"

"Shut up. It's okay, Joe," she says, still hugging me tightly.

"Brex-"

"Seriously, stop talking, or I'm gonna cry too. It's okay," she says, and I can literally hear her grin in her tone. 

"Wait, you forgive me?" I ask incredulously, pulling away to look at her. There are tears sparkling in her eyes as she smiles up at me.

"Yes. I'm probably crazy, because you've put me through hell, but yes, I forgive you. I know I was shitty to you too, though, so do you forgive me?"

"Yeah," I say, laughing a little and bear hugging her again.

"You have no idea how happy I am to hear that. I can't even describe how much I missed you, how weird it was not to talk to you every day and share a house with you," Brexley says.

"Same here. I always thought of things I wanted to tell you and then I realized that I couldn't. It was honestly very depressing," I tell her, and she nods.

"I think the worst of it for me was when Cake by the Ocean came out, to be honest. I heard it by accident, and of course I loved it. But I couldn't handle the fact that it was your work, your great work, and I wouldn't be able to say anything to you about it."

"Aww, you like the song?" I ask her, momentarily distracted by her words.

"Duh, how could I not?" she says, and I swear my face splits in half with how big my smile is.

"Thanks, Brex. I was hoping you would hear it and not hate it even though you hated me," I say, and she grins.

"Nah, I knew it was a banger. I just didn't think I'd ever be able to admit it to you. But anyway, what were you saying when we were arguing about you only being here for twenty-four hours?"

"Well, when you wouldn't call me back or anything last night, I decided to fly back here with Kevin and Nick so I could try and resolve everything in person. But I have to go to Vegas tomorrow night, so that I'm back for the show we have the day after," I explain, and she nods sadly.

"Well, then I guess we're going to have a lot of catching up to do tonight. There's so much I want to tell you, and I'm sure you've got a lot to tell me, too."

"Definitely. It's been way longer than I ever wanted it to be since I told you about anything happening in my life," I say.

"Same here. I just have to go call Jason really quick, because I told him I would after I spoke with you, and then I've got all night to have a conversation. You're staying here, right?" she says.

"Sure, if you'll have me."

"Duh," she says, taking her phone into the kitchen to make the phone call as I settle back onto the couch, smiling to myself.

Though the situation between my sister and I looked pretty bleak up until just a few minutes ago, we actually made it through. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I actually have hope that we're going to make it back to how we were before the band broke up, and I'm overjoyed. From now on, I'm never going to lose hope, because this turn of events right here has shown me that even when it seems impossible, miracles can happen. They can happen, and they can forever improve my life. I'll never forget it.