Sister to Jonas

Moving On

Brexley's POV

I want to forgive Joe, I really do. I want to forgive my brother so bad, and I've had about fourteen thousand breakdowns after he sent me the only text I've received from him since he left; delivered two months ago. Yeah, I know, it seems crazy that we haven't spoken in two months, but that's reality right now. Anyway, though the thought of cutting Joe out of my life forever makes me feel like I'm ripping my heart out, I just can't get myself to let it go and put everything that happened past me. Yes, I'm devastated by all of this, I'm devastated that my best friend is gone, but I'm also furious with him. I still miss Joe a lot, obviously, but not enough to text him back. Call him. Reach out to him in any way. I know he seriously hates me for what I did to him, understandably so, but now that I've had time to somewhat get over my grief, the feeling is mutual. I might've forced Nick on him when I shouldn't have, but Joe turned his back on me without a second thought, and for that I kind of despise him.

The only form of communication I have with him at the moment is through social media posts, and even though it sucks, hurts me immensely, I want to keep it that way. He had his chance. Now, that time is over. I have to move on with my life, I have no other choice. I don't have time to dwell on this any longer; I have to accept that the good times with Joe are done. I've got work to keep me busy now, my relationship with Kevin, Nick, Frankie, and my parents, and last but not least, my brand-new boyfriend, Jason Brooks.

After responding to Jason, I run through a quick explanation in my head of what I'm going to say to my brothers on our Skype call. One thing I have to do for sure is tell them about my boyfriend; when we first met and started talking, Nick broke up the band. After that, there never really was a good time to fill them in that I was interested in someone, and then the whole thing with Joe leaving happened, Kevin and Nick were trying to get me back to a good place mentally, and then right near the end of all that Jason asked me out. Obviously, there wasn't that perfect moment to drop the news on my brothers, so today will have to do. Then, I realize I also have to prepare myself to talk about Joe and how I feel about him, because that's guaranteed to be a question Kevin asks. I'm not really in the mood to spend more time discussing my twin, but I know my family is just trying to help me get through this, so I'll appease them.

I grin to myself as I grab my laptop and get it set up for the call. If there's anything I know how to do, it's rile up my brothers, and it appears I've done a good job of that just now. Seconds later, the Skype request comes through. I answer it immediately, beaming at the indignant looks on Kevin and Nick's faces.

"BREXLEY!" Nick yells as soon as he sees I'm on the call.

"What?" I say, unable to keep the cheeky smile on my face.

"You have a date tonight?" Kevin asks, and I nod, still beaming.

"I've been dating this super sweet guy for about a week and a half now. His name is Jason," I tell them.

"Jason who?" Kevin asks.

"Jason Brooks. I met him at work; he's great."

"Hang on, I'm looking him up on Instagram," Nick says, and I face-palm. I can only imagine what it'll be like if Jason meets my family in person sometime.

"Wait, a week and a half? And you didn't say anything until now?" Kevin teases.

"Well, you know, it wasn't really the best time. I also wasn't in that great of a headspace yet, so."

"Understandable. He looks like a nice dude, from the pictures on Insta. I'm happy for you, Brex," Nick says.

"Me too, of course. I'm glad you're happy," Kevin adds.

"Thanks, guys. But I know we didn't come on here just to talk about my love life. I know you want to talk about Joe," I say, and I see Kevin nod sheepishly.

"We just want to make sure you're okay. We know it was tough when he left, and then when he wouldn't text or call you back."

"I mean, do I miss him? Of course. Do I wish it never happened? Absolutely. But he's moved on from me, and I've moved on from him. We're both pissed at each other, we're both over each other. It doesn't matter anymore."

"But are you, like, okay, though?" Nick asks.

"Yeah, as much as I can be. I have to be. I have other things to spend my energy on, like you guys and Jason."

"Well, I'm glad to hear we're on that list," Kevin jokes, and Nick and I laugh.

"Of course you guys are. Mom, Dad, and Frankie too," I say.

"Good. We won't keep you from your date night, then. Just wanted to check in, you know?" Kevin says.

"Yeah. Thank you, guys. I appreciate it more than you know," I tell them honestly, and they both nod.

"See you soon, Brex," Nick says, and they both click off. I follow suit.

That went smoother than I thought it would, and they both seemed to take the hint about not pushing the issue with Joe anymore. I love those two; you can't get more supportive siblings than Kevin and Nick. It's impossible. I know I've been a burden over these last two months, and they've been by my side the whole time. Now, I'm finally doing better, not bursting into tears unexpectedly every few minutes, and they still care enough to reach out. I love them so much. And, to top it all off, they're both super excited about Jason and I, which I'm thankful for. Right, I'm supposed to text him and tell him to come over.

When Jason tells me he has arrived at the apartment complex, I run down to meet him, jumping into his arms to greet him. There's been so much drama lately with Joe, but now things are finally starting to work out for me again. Finally, things are starting to go my way, and tonight is sure to make my life that much better. Tonight, for the first time in awhile, my thoughts won't be occupied with my twin brother. They will be focused on what's good for me right now, in the moment. Not what was good for me in the past.