H Series : Healing the Girl named Lime

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            One of my favorite songs is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls and when I listen to that song I'll always wait for the line "You bleed just to know you're alive" because yeah, it hits different. 

For years, I was lost and up until now I wouldn't say that I am found because the only comfort of being lost is wandering on any possibilities without limits. Being lost isn't a bad thing. I want to take my time so that when I come back I could say I'm healed.

The past few years were tough. The past few months were overwhelming. The past few days were hell. Every passing hour feels like a burden. That's the downside of living. Every single day is making you numb. But you know what? The past few years are gone. The few months ended already. The past few days are finished and the past hours have already passed but I am still here. Standing tall as ever. Wanna know why? I have something worth fighting for...

My life.

It may not be as happy as before. It may be full of battles which led me to a scarred person but it is still life. And a single life is worth fighting.

It's the nature of human's to feel down. To go through trials. To go hear judgements and hurtful things. To blame their selves. But it is not human nature who we fight against with. It's not human nature who's our greatest enemy. Why? It is ourselves.

If you won't strive for self-love, happiness, contentment and compassion, you wouldn't see every little good thing this world had to offer.

I felt something vibrating inside my pockets. So I searched for my phone and saw that Dad was calling.

"Dad?" 

"Anak, kamusta?" he asked.

"I'm fine, Dad. I'm just sitting in one of the benches here in front of the church. Sketching." 

"Which church, Lime?" 

"La Sagrada Familia. The world's greatest symbolism of apology." I muttered.

"Might as well, forgive yourself. You've been through so much and I know you still blame yourself." he said.

I felt my warm tears started falling along with the breeze of autumn.

"Forgive yourself, anak. I have to go. I have a meeting starting in 5 minutes. I love you." he softly said before the line went off.

With face covered in tears, I looked up to the highest church if it was finished. I looked up to the symbolism of apology and yes, I forgive myself. I'm totally letting go...