The Magnetic: Loving The Womanizer

Chapter 14

Chapter 14: "And in that moment I swore that nothing in this universe could be so heavy as the absence of the person you love."

I used to think I was strong; that I could fight through whatever life throws at me. Not until a curve ball was thrown at me. I realized how much it takes to try pulling oneself out of the dark place. 

Unfortunately, I am not as strong as I thought I was. I wonder how much more I could take? I am emotionally, physically, and mentally drained that nothing helps me anymore; Even sleep doesn't do much for me nowadays. Day after day, I wake up feeling tired. 

"Shut up, Emily! I'm sick and tired of you nagging me every damn time!" 

I swallowed hard and tried to harden my heart. I should be used to this. They used to hide their fights from me, but lately, they don't care anymore. Itinuloy ko ang pagbaba. Bigla silang napahinto ng makita ako. 

I scoffed. "Oh please don't let my presence stop you from fighting. Sanay na ako," I muttered.

Nagtinginan sila. Nahihiyang umiwas ng tingin si mommy at mabilis na tumalikod. Napunta ang tingin ko kay dad. He opened his mouth, but I just shook my head and turned to leave. Huminto ako at nilingon ang bahay namin. Huminga ako ng malalim. 

How much more of their fights could I take? I'm close to losing it. Sa halip na pumasok sa eskwelehan ay nagpunta ako sa isang tambayan. I saw some of my blockmates there. Kaagad nila akong tinawag at binigyan ng bote ng alak. Walang pag-aalinlangan na tinanggap ko iyon at tinungga. 

"Tangna, ibang-iba ka na talaga, Louee! Dati halos hindi mo mainom ang alak ngayon ay dinaig mo pa kami!" natatawang komento ni Quinn. 

Ngumisi lang ako at umabot pa ng isang bote at tinungga. Quinn and her group are considered the black sheep in our department, but funny how I found peace of mind with them. I wasn't close to them; I used to avoid their group because of their reputation.

But when I was lost and had no one beside me, they saved me. They were able to convince me to try beer when they said that it could make me forget my problem. It does. Momentarily. But I'd rather take it, no matter how momentary it is, than drown from misery completely. 

I was so wasted when I got home, but no one noticed. My dad was probably out with her mistress; and my mom, is busy being miserable due to her failing marriage. The next day, I woke up with a bad hangover and was late for school.

Nagtambay na lang ako sa cafeteria. Bailey came with a frown on her face. Umupo siya sa tapat ko. Tumaas ang mga kilay ko.

"Totoo ba na sumasama ka sa grupo nina Quinn at naging lasenggera ka na rin?"

Umiwas ako ng tingin. "They're nice, Bailey."

She scoffed. "Nice? Are you kidding me! Alam ng buong school kung anong klaseng tao yung grupo nila. Ano ang pumasok sa isip mo at sumasama ka sa kanila?"

a line appeared between my brows. "As I've said, they're nice. They're just misunderstood."

"Misunderstood? Louee, a lot of people say that they're using drugs!"

"Rumor," I said dismissively. Quinn and her group may be far from being what this society call a 'perfect' student, but I know for a fact that they're not into illegal substance. 

She breathed out harshly then reached for my hand. "Okay. Sorry. Maybe, I'm being judgmental here, but I'm just really concerned to you. Kaibigan kita. Ano ba ang nangyayari? May problema ba? I know you, Louee; you're not the type who'll skip classes just to drink."