The Magnetic: Loving The Womanizer

Prologue

Prologue: "I do still love him, but it's an aching kind of love. It's more of a I-wish-we-could-have-worked-it-out kind of love."

(How do you know when it's over? How do you know when there's nothing left to fight for? How do you know when to let go? And finally, how can you get through losing your ultimate love?

Is it when he starts ghosting you for a week or two? Is it when he's physically there but his mind and soul are somewhere far from you? Is it when you don't see things in the same light any longer? Is it when the fights leave you exhausted? Is it when you just spend time together because you're supposed to? Or is it when you're still very much in love together but you know deep inside that it isn't enough to sustain what you two have?

For those people who are still in limbo, who are still having an inner battle with their hearts and minds. May you one day find the answers to all your hows and whys.. Love cannot be smooth sailing all the time, but neither should it be an anchor that would pull you down to misery.

Have the courage to love, but have the gumption to walk away when it  compromises your self-respect. This is DJ Joe leaving you with this song.)

Say something

I'm giving up on you

I'll be the one if you want me to

Anywhere, I would've followed you

Say something

I'm giving up on you

And I'm feeling so small

It was over my head

I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall

I'm still learning to love

Starting to crawl

I leaned my head against the headrest of my van and closed my eyes as I listened to the song playing on the radio. A deep sigh came out of my mouth and hugged my pillow which I always bring whenever I have a shooting. 

Say something

I'm giving up on you

I'm sorry I couldn't get to you

My eyes flew open as the door suddenly slid open. Here he is again; the man with an intoxicating smile that never fails to make my heart jump each time. A pair of beautiful brown eyes which are full of mischief. A beautiful, angelic face that could mesmerize you in a heart beat. 

Anywhere I would've followed you

Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I.. will swallow my pride

You're the one that I love..

"I knew it; you're listening to the radio again."

I cleared my throat and looked away. "What are you doing here?"

"I brought your favorite hot choco." Itinaas pa niya ang dala. "Scoot over."

Umusog ako ng kaunti. Kaagad naman siyang pumasok at tumabi sa akin. His perfume which is my favorite smell in the world, filled my van. 

"How did you know my shooting location?"

"I have my ways," he said then winked.  Inabot niya sa akin ang hot choco at sandwhich. "You eat, okay? I know you starve yourself when you're at work."

Napalunok ako habang tinitingnan ang mga pagkain na dala niya. "You drove for two hours from Manila to Cavite just to bring me food?" I muttered.

"Hm?" baling niya sa akin. Hindi ako kumibo. "Huwag mo na akong titigan. Alam ko gwapo ako, Louee."

Inirapan ko siya. "Kapal talaga!"

He chuckled. "Kunwari ka pa! Alam ko nasa showbiz ka pero huwag mo masyadong isabuhay. The truth will set you free."

You want the truth, Vash? Well, here it is; I always answered 'yes' to the same damn question that was asked of me every freakin' time, if I had already moved on from you, and I really thought I did. But guess what? One night while I was watching the stars, there was a shooting star, and you know the first thing that came into my mind? It was to waste it on you. Yes, I wished for you even if I knew it would be wasted.

How's that? Can you take my truth? Or will you walk away from me?

Writer's note:

Today, I was planning to write an update of Hook, Line, & Sinker. However, my mood wasn't up for that. It was urging me to write a different story instead. Then I watched 'Through Night & Day' next I watched 'The Affair' -both films made me damn cry, and that was when I knew I had to update this one. I just had to. 

Mjfelicity