She Came Back

Chapter 28

YNA

I can't say I'm being myself these past weeks. What he said that day still struck me even he keep telling me those three words even before, but something's different on how he said those words that day.

It struck me to the core.

“Engineer!”

And after I knew, my face slammed to a wall.

I palmed my face and sat down to the ground to pick up the documents I dropped after my impact to the wall. And a hand helped me while wheezing, trying not to laugh.

“Just laugh it out Tofer, don't hold in.” I groaned as he laughed and hand me the papers.

I glared at him as he helped me stand up again whil caressing my forehead.

“Ano ba'ng nangyari sa'yo? Francis told me na parang lutang ka, kaya pinapunta nalang kita dito sa opisina. Are you sick?” he put his hand in my forehead checking ny temperature.

I breathe and brush off his hand.

“I'm fine. I was just thinking.” I said and went straight to my office. I heard his footstep following me so I just let him in.

“Naiisip mo ba'ng mamimiss mo ako kapag aalis ka?” He grinned as I continue glaring at him.

“Wa'g kang mangago Tope masasapak kita.” He laughed and took his seat.

“Ano ba'ng problema mo?” this time his voice became serious so I faced him with troubled expression.

“Sarili ko.” I mumbled as his brows knitted while looking at me.

“Is it the ex-boyfriend you told me before while we're in Finland? Who is he anyway, you never told me a name.”

I played with my lips while looking at him. Should I tell him or no?

“Someone near. You knew him probably, so I wont tell a name.” I grinned.

Tofer told me his real feelings before, and I literally turned him down for the thought that Lemuel is still waiting for me. But we're good friends now, he's the one who took care of me at school in Finland.

“Sino ba kasi? Mas gwapo ba yun?”

Hell yeah.

Kristofer is also handsome, but Lemuel is in another level.

I keep grinning at him as he became so frustrated so I just laughed at him to piss him more. Then he smiled and reached for my head and ruined my hairstyle.

“Glad to see you smiling again.” then I realized what he just did. I gave him a smile and also held his hand.

“Thanks Tofer.”

“'Wag mo ko'ng paasahin. Nakakasakit ka na eh.” I keep smiling at him as he sat down again while looking around.

I know when he goof or not, so I playfully smack his shoulders as he gave me a grin.

“Kamusta kayo ni Pat? Kingina mo, sekretarya mo talaga eh no?” He chuckled and scratched his head while shrugging.

“I think we're getting there. And for you my dear friend, find your happiness. Don't let any doubts will stop you from your happiness. Regrets hurts the most you know.” Napatingin ako sa kanya at napaisip. Thrn he bid his sudden exit as I keep my mind flooded with what-ifs.

But I'm still too scared. Olivia is my biggest threat in my happiness. Wala pa siya'ng ginagawa ngayon, pero alam ko. Alam ko, may gagawin siya.

I keep my mind off from thinking as I just focus on my work. I need to finish off some arrangements for my transfer.

Am I escaping? Maybe so, I'm scared for the people around me.

Maybe I am still a coward. Di ko na napansin na magdidilim na kaya sinave ko muna ang ginagawa ko sa computer ko bago ako napaharap sa glass wall at tiningnan ang ilaw sa labas na kumikinang.

Di ko na alam kung ano'ng gagawin ko. I know I have a plan, but Lemuel came to my life again. Those plans had so many turns I need to take before I can say I completely reached my goal. My life is a mess.

After work, I went straight home and saw Krystelle studying at the sala. She just gave me a wave as she's so focused on what she's reading. I smiled at her. The little girl I've been taking care of is now a grown little lady. I'm too attached to them, nasumpa ko pa sa sarili ko na aalagaan ko ng mabuti to'ng bata'ng to hanggang makamit niya ang mga pangarap niya.

Tatanda na ata ako'ng dalaga.

I laughed my thought out and went to the kitchen to cook for our dinner.

“Ah leche! Ba't ba pag aaralan pa to, eh magtetraining rin naman ako dun sa New Zealand.” I heard she complains and her footstep coming near the kitchen. I gave her a mocking grin while cooking.

“You wanted it. Have no doubts about on what you're working to have your dreams come true.” She mirrored my grin as she held her chin.

“Have no doubts rin Tita. Alam ko'ng duda ka parin eh. Sa akin lang ah? I think Lemuel is so sincere about you, hahayaan mo ba'ng lamunin ka ng pagdududa at pagsasawalang bahala ang kaligayahan mo dahil lang dun?” She spoke.

Napatitig naman ako sa kanya at bumalik ulit ang pag iisip ko kanina.

“I'm still too scared Telle. I know your Mother will hate that word coming from me. I'm just too scared of pain again. Especially for the what-ifs. I don't want to drag you and Michelle to my messed up life.”

She smiled at me and hugged me.

“We're already part of it the moment Ma extended her hand to help you. We want to help you stand up again and build the stronger you. Besides kung may gagawin ulit yung kapatid mo sasampalin ko yun.” we both laughed at her goof as I finished off our dinner and went to eat.

Having conversation with this kid really let me forget my problems. Eventhough I know she's carrying pain as well from her family. Krystelle already know about her Father. And heck about that jerk for leaving again after Michelle already agreed to accept him in their lives once again. Makukurot ko talaga apdo ng kupal na'yun.

As I sat down on my bed, memories from my past came rushing in. Every memories I have with Lemuel, the happy one and the sad one.

Akala ko matapang na ako. Akala ko kaya ko, pero sa harap lang naman ako matapang eh. Ang totoo, natatakot lang talaga ako'ng mapahamak sina Mich at Telle. Gagawin lahat ni Olivia para lang masaktan ako, ultimo pati sa Daddy ko kaya niya akong pagbantaan na ipapahamak niya, paano nalang kaya ang mga taong tumulong sa akin.

“I won't let that happen. Pero bakit nananahimik parin siya, I know Olivia wouldn't just standby and watch me.” I murmured when I saw some pictures I had when I was in Finland with Michelle and Telle.

I want to follow what my heart has been telling me, pero iniisip ko parin ang mga tao sa paligid ko.

Bahala na!

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Tbc...